1 00:01:47,565 --> 00:01:50,151 Do you think the book autobiographical? 2 00:01:51,611 --> 00:01:53,655 Well, I think... 3 00:01:53,822 --> 00:01:56,658 ...what isn't everything autobiographical? 4 00:01:56,825 --> 00:02:01,287 I think we all see the world through your little keyhole, right? 5 00:02:01,496 --> 00:02:03,415 I mean, I always remember to Thomas Wolfe. 6 00:02:03,623 --> 00:02:06,876 Have you ever seen that one "note to the reader"... 7 00:02:07,043 --> 00:02:09,170 ...on the first page of the book See home angel? 8 00:02:09,963 --> 00:02:14,884 It basically says that we are the sum total all the moments of our life... 9 00:02:15,051 --> 00:02:18,847 ...and that anyone who wants to be what to write using own experience. 10 00:02:19,014 --> 00:02:20,557 This cannot be avoided. 11 00:02:20,724 --> 00:02:25,645 When I look at my own life, I have to admit that... 12 00:02:25,937 --> 00:02:30,442 I was never exposed weapons or to violence, not even. 13 00:02:30,650 --> 00:02:34,571 No political intrigue or helicopter crashes, no? 14 00:02:35,196 --> 00:02:39,284 But it was my life quite dramatic from my own point of view. 15 00:02:39,909 --> 00:02:42,370 So I thought if i could write a book... 16 00:02:42,579 --> 00:02:47,000 ...which would describe how it is, if you really get to know someone. 17 00:02:47,208 --> 00:02:49,878 One of the most exciting things that happened to me 18 00:02:50,045 --> 00:02:52,339 is to meet someone you create a relationship. 19 00:02:52,547 --> 00:02:56,593 And if I could raise it, to catch... 20 00:02:57,260 --> 00:03:00,555 ...that would be a trial, or... 21 00:03:01,097 --> 00:03:03,600 I answered you to the question? 22 00:03:04,184 --> 00:03:06,603 I will try to be more accurate. 23 00:03:07,062 --> 00:03:09,773 Have you ever met a young A French woman on the train... 24 00:03:09,939 --> 00:03:12,275 ...and spent the evening with her? 25 00:03:16,154 --> 00:03:19,074 You know, for me... 26 00:03:19,240 --> 00:03:22,702 ...it doesn't matter, you know? So is it true? 27 00:03:23,620 --> 00:03:27,624 Well, if I'm already in France and this is the last presentation, yes. 28 00:03:28,416 --> 00:03:30,251 Thank you. 29 00:03:30,418 --> 00:03:33,838 Mr. Wallace, the book ends in an ambiguous way. 30 00:03:34,005 --> 00:03:35,340 We don't know. 31 00:03:35,548 --> 00:03:38,134 Do you think they will meet again in half a year... 32 00:03:38,385 --> 00:03:41,763 ...as promised? 33 00:03:42,389 --> 00:03:44,307 As you promised each other? 34 00:03:45,892 --> 00:03:48,603 I think the answer to that is… 35 00:03:49,437 --> 00:03:52,691 Well, a good test is are you a romantic or a cynic. 36 00:03:52,941 --> 00:03:56,945 Right? I mean, you think to meet again? 37 00:03:57,112 --> 00:03:58,655 You certainly don't. -No. 38 00:03:58,822 --> 00:04:00,824 And you hope that, but you are not sure. 39 00:04:01,032 --> 00:04:04,703 That's why you're asking me. Do you think they will meet again? 40 00:04:04,911 --> 00:04:07,038 I mean, they got into real life? 41 00:04:08,498 --> 00:04:10,333 Did I...? 42 00:04:10,709 --> 00:04:13,294 See, by the words of my grandfather, right: 43 00:04:13,461 --> 00:04:16,548 The answer to that, I would spoil all the pleasure. 44 00:04:17,465 --> 00:04:20,969 We have enough time just for one more question. 45 00:04:21,177 --> 00:04:22,887 Which will be your next one a book? 46 00:04:25,473 --> 00:04:27,976 I don't know man, I don't know. 47 00:04:28,226 --> 00:04:31,688 I thought... I was thinking about this... 48 00:04:31,855 --> 00:04:34,566 I've always wanted to write a book... 49 00:04:34,733 --> 00:04:38,403 ...which would last so long, like a pop song. 50 00:04:38,611 --> 00:04:41,740 About 3 or 4 minutes. 51 00:04:41,948 --> 00:04:45,452 The story, the idea is about someone dude, no... 52 00:04:45,660 --> 00:04:48,371 ...and he's totally depressed. 53 00:04:48,580 --> 00:04:52,751 It was his dream that he would lover, adventurer, you know… 54 00:04:52,917 --> 00:04:55,670 ...to drive a motorbike across South America. 55 00:04:55,879 --> 00:04:58,590 Instead, he sits at the table and there is lobster. 56 00:04:58,798 --> 00:05:01,885 He has a good job and a beautiful wife but... 57 00:05:02,052 --> 00:05:05,430 He has everything he needs. But that doesn't matter... 58 00:05:05,638 --> 00:05:08,600 ...because I really would like to fought for something important. 59 00:05:08,850 --> 00:05:11,102 You know? Luck it's in action, isn't it? 60 00:05:11,311 --> 00:05:13,605 But not in getting it whatever you want 61 00:05:13,813 --> 00:05:17,275 By sitting there and that very moment... 62 00:05:17,484 --> 00:05:21,738 ...his five-year-old daughter jump on the table. 63 00:05:21,905 --> 00:05:25,200 And she realizes that she should to go down because he might get hurt. 64 00:05:25,408 --> 00:05:30,121 But he's dancing to some pop song in a summer dress. 65 00:05:30,747 --> 00:05:32,749 He looks down... 66 00:05:32,957 --> 00:05:35,460 and suddenly he is old 16 years. 67 00:05:36,294 --> 00:05:41,758 And his high school girlfriend she just brought him. 68 00:05:41,925 --> 00:05:45,470 And they just lost their virginity, she loves him… 69 00:05:45,679 --> 00:05:49,599 ...and the same song plays on the car radio. 70 00:05:49,891 --> 00:05:52,852 The girl climbs up and starts dancing on the roof of the car. 71 00:05:53,061 --> 00:05:54,604 But now he worries about her. 72 00:05:54,771 --> 00:05:59,067 She is beautiful, similar his daughter. 73 00:05:59,401 --> 00:06:01,569 Maybe it's because of him like this 74 00:06:01,778 --> 00:06:04,698 He is aware that this it doesn't remind me of dancing... 75 00:06:04,906 --> 00:06:08,618 ...he's there. It's there in both moments at the same time. 76 00:06:08,827 --> 00:06:12,247 And for a moment it seems to him that his life unfolds before him. 77 00:06:12,455 --> 00:06:15,166 It becomes obvious to him, that time is a lie. 78 00:06:17,460 --> 00:06:19,921 That everything is happening at once. 79 00:06:20,088 --> 00:06:23,675 And that it is at any moment another moment. 80 00:06:23,925 --> 00:06:25,760 everything happens simultaneously. 81 00:06:25,969 --> 00:06:29,055 That's roughly the idea. Anyway. 82 00:06:30,390 --> 00:06:32,767 Our writer has to go soon to the airport... 83 00:06:32,976 --> 00:06:35,895 thank you to everyone who came this afternoon. 84 00:06:36,104 --> 00:06:39,357 And a special big thank you Mr. Wallace for being with us. 85 00:06:39,566 --> 00:06:40,984 Thank you. Thank you. 86 00:06:41,151 --> 00:06:43,862 We hope to see you again next book. 87 00:06:50,452 --> 00:06:53,830 Thank you all. After how long do i have a flight 88 00:06:53,997 --> 00:06:55,623 We should leave at 19:30. 89 00:06:55,874 --> 00:06:58,376 No later than 7:30 p.m. 90 00:07:03,298 --> 00:07:06,634 Hello. Hello. 91 00:07:09,262 --> 00:07:11,973 how are you Good, how about you? 92 00:07:13,767 --> 00:07:16,561 I'm fine, I'm great... 93 00:07:17,354 --> 00:07:19,689 I would maybe go to one coffee? 94 00:07:20,440 --> 00:07:22,901 What didn't he just say that you have to catch a flight. 95 00:07:23,943 --> 00:07:26,863 Yes. But I still have some time 96 00:07:27,238 --> 00:07:30,533 Right. Yes? Okay then... 97 00:07:30,742 --> 00:07:32,827 Meet outside. Right. 98 00:07:34,579 --> 00:07:36,915 Excuse me. Just a cup I'm going to have coffee. 99 00:07:37,165 --> 00:07:39,417 I arrive at 19:15. Did you sign everything? 100 00:07:39,584 --> 00:07:42,212 Yes, I am. Give your driver Philip's business card... 101 00:07:42,420 --> 00:07:44,881 ...so that you can call on your cell phone if you're going to be late. 102 00:07:45,131 --> 00:07:47,717 We will put your luggage in the car, so you won't be late. 103 00:07:47,926 --> 00:07:50,428 Okay, thank you for everything. Thank you. 104 00:07:52,806 --> 00:07:54,766 Which one is Philippe? 105 00:08:12,701 --> 00:08:16,037 I can't believe you're here. I live here in Paris. 106 00:08:17,455 --> 00:08:20,792 Are you sure you can go? You don't need to talk anymore? 107 00:08:21,001 --> 00:08:23,044 I'm already fed up. I spent the night here. 108 00:08:23,253 --> 00:08:26,589 What really? Yes, they have a loft upstairs. 109 00:08:26,965 --> 00:08:29,342 how are you This is so weird. I'm fine. 110 00:08:29,551 --> 00:08:33,263 Nice to see you. It's nice for you too. 111 00:08:35,640 --> 00:08:38,059 So would you like to go for coffee? Yes. 112 00:08:38,268 --> 00:08:40,645 Okay. One cafe I like it's a little further. 113 00:08:40,812 --> 00:08:44,691 I thought I was going to pass out when I first saw you inside. 114 00:08:44,899 --> 00:08:46,651 how did you know to be there? 115 00:08:46,860 --> 00:08:51,239 This is my favorite bookstore in Paris. You can read for hours. 116 00:08:51,406 --> 00:08:53,408 I really like it. He has fleas but, you know. 117 00:08:53,575 --> 00:08:55,952 I know. I think I did last night the cat slept on his head. 118 00:08:56,119 --> 00:08:58,747 I saw your picture on calendar about a month ago... 119 00:08:58,913 --> 00:09:00,790 ...and I knew that you will come 120 00:09:01,207 --> 00:09:04,127 It's weird because I read it an article about your book... 121 00:09:04,294 --> 00:09:08,298 and he seemed vaguely familiar. Foggy? Yes. 122 00:09:08,673 --> 00:09:12,510 But I didn't realize until I didn't see your picture. 123 00:09:12,677 --> 00:09:14,846 Maybe you read it? 124 00:09:15,055 --> 00:09:16,473 Yes... 125 00:09:16,639 --> 00:09:19,100 I was very surprised, as you can imagine. 126 00:09:19,309 --> 00:09:21,936 I had to do it twice to read. 127 00:09:22,145 --> 00:09:24,189 Yes? Yes. 128 00:09:25,607 --> 00:09:28,193 No, because I liked her. A lot she is romantic. 129 00:09:28,401 --> 00:09:31,029 I usually don't like it, but it is very well written. 130 00:09:31,279 --> 00:09:34,282 It is well written. Congratulations. Great. Thank you. 131 00:09:34,699 --> 00:09:36,534 Wait. What? 132 00:09:36,785 --> 00:09:40,747 before we go i have to ask you... 133 00:09:41,164 --> 00:09:42,707 Of course. What? 134 00:09:42,916 --> 00:09:45,877 You came to Vienna, that December? 135 00:09:47,754 --> 00:09:52,133 what are you No, I couldn't. what are you 136 00:09:52,300 --> 00:09:55,679 I need to know. It is important. Why if you're not? 137 00:09:56,054 --> 00:09:58,056 what are you 138 00:09:58,223 --> 00:09:59,724 No. 139 00:10:01,351 --> 00:10:02,852 Thank God you didn't. 140 00:10:03,061 --> 00:10:04,854 Oh my god. Thank God you're not. 141 00:10:05,063 --> 00:10:08,525 Thank God we both didn't. If either of us came alone... 142 00:10:08,733 --> 00:10:11,152 ...that would be really bad. I was so worried. 143 00:10:11,319 --> 00:10:15,198 I felt terrible because I didn't come, but I couldn't. My grandmother died... 144 00:10:15,407 --> 00:10:17,659 ...and the funeral was just that day. December 16th. 145 00:10:17,867 --> 00:10:20,412 The one from Budapest? Yes. Do you remember? 146 00:10:20,662 --> 00:10:23,415 I remember everything. Of course, because you wrote it. 147 00:10:23,623 --> 00:10:26,918 It doesn't matter, I wanted to fly to Vienna... 148 00:10:27,127 --> 00:10:31,172 and then we found out and of course I had to go to a funeral. 149 00:10:31,339 --> 00:10:33,091 Yes, I'm sorry. 150 00:10:33,258 --> 00:10:37,012 I know. But you it wasn't anyway. 151 00:10:37,220 --> 00:10:39,723 Wait. Why weren't you there? 152 00:10:39,931 --> 00:10:43,268 I would come if I could. I planned everything... 153 00:10:43,476 --> 00:10:45,687 I hope you have a good reason. 154 00:10:45,895 --> 00:10:47,230 What? 155 00:10:49,315 --> 00:10:50,775 Oh, no. 156 00:10:51,443 --> 00:10:53,445 You came, didn't you? 157 00:10:53,695 --> 00:10:56,364 Oh no, that's terrible. 158 00:10:56,573 --> 00:10:58,283 I'm laughing, but I'm serious. 159 00:10:58,450 --> 00:11:00,285 Did you hate me? You must have hated me. 160 00:11:00,493 --> 00:11:02,746 Why do you hate me all the time? No. 161 00:11:02,912 --> 00:11:04,247 Yes me. No. 162 00:11:04,456 --> 00:11:06,291 But you can't have me now to hate, right? 163 00:11:06,499 --> 00:11:09,627 I mean, Grandma... I don't hate you because it's nothing. 164 00:11:09,836 --> 00:11:12,380 I flew there, you did canceled the case. 165 00:11:12,589 --> 00:11:15,633 My life went downhill but no problem. 166 00:11:15,884 --> 00:11:18,720 No, I'm kidding. Don't speak of this. I can't believe it. 167 00:11:18,928 --> 00:11:21,389 You must have been very angry with me. I'm sorry. 168 00:11:21,556 --> 00:11:24,100 I wanted to be there more than anywhere. 169 00:11:24,267 --> 00:11:26,978 Seriously. You can't be mad. My grandmother... 170 00:11:27,187 --> 00:11:30,815 I know. I really thought you would something like that could happen. 171 00:11:31,024 --> 00:11:33,109 I was depressed but... 172 00:11:33,276 --> 00:11:36,988 I was more angry because we weren't exchanged numbers. 173 00:11:37,155 --> 00:11:39,157 That was so stupid. We couldn't get in touch. 174 00:11:39,324 --> 00:11:41,659 I couldn't search. I didn't know your last name. 175 00:11:41,826 --> 00:11:44,996 You remember, we both were scared to call... 176 00:11:45,205 --> 00:11:48,750 ...to slowly fade into oblivion. It was certainly not forgotten. 177 00:11:48,917 --> 00:11:50,168 No, definitely not. 178 00:11:50,335 --> 00:11:52,170 We wanted to continue forward with the relationship. 179 00:11:52,337 --> 00:11:55,715 Which would be fine if it did worked. Oh yeah. 180 00:11:57,050 --> 00:11:58,593 So... 181 00:11:59,177 --> 00:12:02,389 How long were you in Vienna? Just a few days. 182 00:12:03,932 --> 00:12:06,101 Did you meet another girl? 183 00:12:06,309 --> 00:12:08,895 Yes, her name was Gretchen and she was amazing. 184 00:12:09,104 --> 00:12:11,815 The book is in fact a component of both. 185 00:12:12,023 --> 00:12:15,819 Just kidding. I wouldn't believe it. I went back to the train station. 186 00:12:16,027 --> 00:12:20,115 I put my number on the bulletin board in the hotel in case I was late. 187 00:12:20,281 --> 00:12:22,951 I was completely stupid. Let's go this way. Did someone call you? 188 00:12:23,368 --> 00:12:26,371 Just some bitches who were looking for work. 189 00:12:26,579 --> 00:12:29,124 It wasn't terrible, I think what would you like me to say. 190 00:12:29,290 --> 00:12:30,709 This is so sad. I'm sorry. 191 00:12:30,917 --> 00:12:34,004 I walked around for a few days. Then I went home 192 00:12:34,212 --> 00:12:36,464 I owed my father 2000 dollars. 193 00:12:36,673 --> 00:12:38,675 who warned me about french babes. 194 00:12:38,883 --> 00:12:40,719 What did Fr French women? 195 00:12:40,969 --> 00:12:43,054 Nothing. He never met no French women. 196 00:12:43,263 --> 00:12:45,515 He had never been east of Mississippi. 197 00:12:45,682 --> 00:12:49,894 Why didn't you post "In half a year there was no French bitch?" 198 00:12:50,103 --> 00:12:51,688 No, but I am, I am. 199 00:12:51,896 --> 00:12:54,816 Are you? Yes. No. I made it better. 200 00:12:55,025 --> 00:12:57,569 I wrote a fictional version, where you come 201 00:12:57,777 --> 00:13:00,238 Really, what happened? Well... 202 00:13:01,531 --> 00:13:03,158 What? 203 00:13:03,575 --> 00:13:06,578 We make love non-stop for 10 days, this is only one part. 204 00:13:06,745 --> 00:13:09,539 Interesting. So a French whore, huh? Yes, exactly. 205 00:13:09,748 --> 00:13:12,208 Only then get to know each other better... 206 00:13:12,417 --> 00:13:14,419 ...and they find out that they do they don't understand. 207 00:13:14,627 --> 00:13:17,922 I like that. It's more real. My editor didn't think so. 208 00:13:18,089 --> 00:13:20,216 Everyone wants to believe in love. It is for sale. 209 00:13:20,383 --> 00:13:22,385 Yes exactly, so... 210 00:13:23,094 --> 00:13:25,680 So you're doing well, right? I mean... 211 00:13:25,889 --> 00:13:29,100 Your book is a bestseller in the USA. It is a small bestseller. 212 00:13:29,309 --> 00:13:31,269 Oh come on. All right. Officially, yes. 213 00:13:31,519 --> 00:13:34,606 Most people haven't read Moby Dick. Why should you read my book? 214 00:13:34,814 --> 00:13:37,067 I haven't read it either and I liked yours. 215 00:13:37,233 --> 00:13:39,527 Thank you. Although... 216 00:13:39,736 --> 00:13:42,489 I think you were embellishing night in it. 217 00:13:42,697 --> 00:13:44,407 Come on, it's made up, why not? 218 00:13:44,574 --> 00:13:46,242 I'm supposed to... I know, I know. 219 00:13:46,451 --> 00:13:49,621 I know. I thought you were me sometimes displayed... 220 00:13:49,871 --> 00:13:54,250 I mean, her, right? Not me. Right, whatever. 221 00:13:54,417 --> 00:13:57,504 A little neurotic. You are little like that, aren't you? 222 00:13:57,712 --> 00:14:00,965 You think I'm neurotic? No, no, no. Come on, I'm kidding. 223 00:14:01,132 --> 00:14:02,967 Where did I write that? I didn't write that. 224 00:14:03,176 --> 00:14:05,887 Maybe just me that's how i see it... 225 00:14:06,054 --> 00:14:09,099 When you read something and you know it is written after you... 226 00:14:09,307 --> 00:14:11,976 it flatters you and it's annoying at the same time. 227 00:14:12,185 --> 00:14:13,645 How annoying is that? 228 00:14:13,895 --> 00:14:18,108 I don't know. Just because you are a piece of memory from someone else. 229 00:14:18,274 --> 00:14:20,902 I see myself through your eyes. 230 00:14:21,069 --> 00:14:23,488 how long did it take you that you wrote it? 231 00:14:24,447 --> 00:14:26,241 Three to four years, a little here, a little there. 232 00:14:26,449 --> 00:14:29,619 That's a lot of time to write about one night. 233 00:14:29,828 --> 00:14:32,497 I know. What you don't say. 234 00:14:32,789 --> 00:14:35,250 I always assumed that you forgot about me. 235 00:14:35,667 --> 00:14:38,420 No, I was quite clear idea about you. 236 00:14:38,628 --> 00:14:41,047 I have something to tell you. I... What? 237 00:14:41,214 --> 00:14:45,010 I have wanted to speak for so long with you that it's all too real now. 238 00:14:45,218 --> 00:14:46,970 I feel that everything should be… 239 00:14:47,137 --> 00:14:49,556 How much time do we have? 20 minutes and 30 seconds? 240 00:14:49,764 --> 00:14:52,058 We have more time. I want to meet you. 241 00:14:52,267 --> 00:14:54,853 tell me what are you doing What do you do for a living? 242 00:14:55,103 --> 00:14:59,691 Where would you start? I work for the Green Cross. It is an environmental organization. 243 00:14:59,941 --> 00:15:01,276 What are they doing? 244 00:15:01,484 --> 00:15:04,029 We mainly work on different ones environmental areas. 245 00:15:04,237 --> 00:15:06,865 ...from clean water, to disarmament of chemical weapons. 246 00:15:07,032 --> 00:15:09,492 international laws, which concern the environment. 247 00:15:09,659 --> 00:15:12,037 What do you do for them? Let's go here. 248 00:15:12,454 --> 00:15:13,788 Different things. 249 00:15:13,997 --> 00:15:17,876 I was in India last year, where I worked at the water plant. 250 00:15:18,668 --> 00:15:22,005 The cotton industry there is a great source of strife. 251 00:15:22,172 --> 00:15:25,091 It sounds like you are working something important. 252 00:15:25,300 --> 00:15:28,762 Most people, myself included, he just sits there and complains. 253 00:15:28,928 --> 00:15:33,558 How America spends all the world's sources, SUVs are rotten... 254 00:15:33,767 --> 00:15:35,143 global warming exists… 255 00:15:35,352 --> 00:15:38,730 I'm relieved to see that you're not one of the "free" Americans. 256 00:15:38,897 --> 00:15:41,316 Well, you know... How did you even start? 257 00:15:41,483 --> 00:15:44,736 I graduated in political science major and wanted to get a job with the government. 258 00:15:44,986 --> 00:15:47,697 For a while I did. Terrible. Wasn't it good? 259 00:15:47,906 --> 00:15:51,534 Yes, no? Mostly bored I did. Let's go here. 260 00:15:51,743 --> 00:15:54,037 Having those endless conversations with friends... 261 00:15:54,204 --> 00:15:56,414 ...about how the world falling to pieces. 262 00:15:56,664 --> 00:15:59,084 So that I decided what i really want is... 263 00:15:59,292 --> 00:16:02,629 ...find things that are fixable and try to fix them. 264 00:16:02,837 --> 00:16:06,591 I always thought you would did something like that. I really meant it. 265 00:16:06,800 --> 00:16:11,721 Thank you. I feel that I can be very happy because I have a job I like. 266 00:16:11,930 --> 00:16:13,390 Yes. 267 00:16:13,556 --> 00:16:18,269 I'm actually changing my mind about that everything is irrevocably wrong... 268 00:16:18,478 --> 00:16:20,772 ...and that things might are changing for the better. 269 00:16:20,980 --> 00:16:23,400 For the better? How can you are you even saying that? 270 00:16:23,566 --> 00:16:25,360 Well, I just think... 271 00:16:25,527 --> 00:16:29,197 I know it sounds weird, but some things are not bad. 272 00:16:29,406 --> 00:16:34,119 OK...I know your book it sells well, which is great. I'll indulge you. 273 00:16:34,327 --> 00:16:37,580 But let me tell you: The world is a single mess right now. 274 00:16:37,789 --> 00:16:40,250 From a western perspective, things are getting a little better. 275 00:16:40,500 --> 00:16:44,087 We are moving our own industry to underdeveloped countries where labor is cheap... 276 00:16:44,295 --> 00:16:47,549 ...where there are no environmental regulations. The military industry is booming. 277 00:16:47,716 --> 00:16:50,677 Five million people die each year due to convincing diseases of lack of water. 278 00:16:50,885 --> 00:16:53,888 How is the world improving? I don't get angry, I don't get angry. 279 00:16:54,097 --> 00:16:56,182 I just really want to know. I'm interested. 280 00:16:56,391 --> 00:16:59,894 I realize it's a lot serious problems in the world. 281 00:17:00,103 --> 00:17:02,313 Okay. Thank you. I mean, I don't even have one 282 00:17:02,564 --> 00:17:05,942 one publisher in Asia the market. Okay, right. 283 00:17:06,609 --> 00:17:09,571 Say stop. What? Stop. 284 00:17:09,738 --> 00:17:13,658 Look, I'm just saying there's more awareness. People will rebel. 285 00:17:13,825 --> 00:17:16,828 The world may be getting better because there are people like you 286 00:17:16,995 --> 00:17:18,621 better educated and they talk about it. 287 00:17:19,080 --> 00:17:22,417 Even the very concept of conservation, nature conservation topics... 288 00:17:22,625 --> 00:17:25,003 this is still in the vocabulary it wasn't until recently. 289 00:17:25,170 --> 00:17:29,257 Now this is becoming the norm and it will eventually become the way it should be. 290 00:17:29,466 --> 00:17:32,427 I agree with you but at the same time it is dangerous. 291 00:17:32,635 --> 00:17:35,263 Conquering land, can use such an opinion 292 00:17:35,430 --> 00:17:37,599 for advocacy economic greed. 293 00:17:39,059 --> 00:17:43,104 Do you have a specific one in mind? conquering land french woman? 294 00:17:43,271 --> 00:17:45,482 No, not even. No? 295 00:17:50,904 --> 00:17:54,366 Would you like to sit here? Yes, it's great here. 296 00:17:54,783 --> 00:17:57,535 Oh, yes. Maybe what I'm saying is... 297 00:17:57,744 --> 00:18:00,663 ...that the world develops, just as a person develops. 298 00:18:00,830 --> 00:18:03,875 For example me. Am I getting worse? 299 00:18:04,042 --> 00:18:08,213 Am I getting better? I don't know. I was healthier when I was younger. 300 00:18:08,421 --> 00:18:10,882 But I was doomed because of uncertainty, you know? 301 00:18:11,549 --> 00:18:13,635 Now that I'm older my problems are deeper... 302 00:18:13,802 --> 00:18:15,679 ...but I'm better equipped for their rescue. 303 00:18:16,429 --> 00:18:18,556 What are your problems? 304 00:18:20,141 --> 00:18:24,646 Currently, I don't have any? I don't, you know. I'm just... 305 00:18:24,813 --> 00:18:26,564 ...damn lucky to be here. 306 00:18:26,981 --> 00:18:28,566 Me too. 307 00:18:31,569 --> 00:18:33,822 How long have you been in Paris? 308 00:18:34,030 --> 00:18:37,450 I came last night. I went over 10 cities in 12 days. 309 00:18:37,659 --> 00:18:39,994 I'm down. I'm so happy that it's over, you know? 310 00:18:40,203 --> 00:18:41,663 I'm sick of it, yes I'm advertising. 311 00:18:42,247 --> 00:18:43,707 Hello. Hello. 312 00:18:43,957 --> 00:18:45,417 What would you drink? 313 00:18:45,667 --> 00:18:47,627 A cup of coffee. 314 00:18:51,381 --> 00:18:55,093 Oh, how I love this cafe. If only we had them in the US. 315 00:18:55,552 --> 00:18:58,054 I missed coffee shops too, when I lived there. 316 00:18:58,263 --> 00:19:01,099 I mean I found some which I liked, but they were… 317 00:19:01,349 --> 00:19:05,353 Have you lived in the US? Yes, from l. '96 to '99. 318 00:19:05,562 --> 00:19:07,105 I studied at New York University. 319 00:19:07,522 --> 00:19:10,108 Oh god don't tell me that Celine. 320 00:19:10,358 --> 00:19:12,402 What? Not only... 321 00:19:12,610 --> 00:19:14,279 Nothing, I mean, I... What? 322 00:19:14,487 --> 00:19:17,866 I have lived in New York since l. '98. We were there at the same time. 323 00:19:18,033 --> 00:19:19,617 In New York? Yes. 324 00:19:19,784 --> 00:19:24,456 This is strange. I did a few times even thought that I could meet you... 325 00:19:24,664 --> 00:19:26,958 ...but the odds are like that small, right? 326 00:19:27,584 --> 00:19:29,502 I didn't know which one yet the place you were 327 00:19:29,669 --> 00:19:33,131 Haven't you been somewhere in Texas? Yes, yes of course, just... 328 00:19:33,381 --> 00:19:36,885 I was a long time. Only I wanted to try New York. 329 00:19:38,928 --> 00:19:40,597 What brought you back here? 330 00:19:40,805 --> 00:19:42,807 I completed my master's studies... 331 00:19:43,016 --> 00:19:45,226 ...and left without a visa, no more visas. 332 00:19:45,435 --> 00:19:49,814 And I started to become paranoid. All media violence: 333 00:19:49,981 --> 00:19:53,234 Gangs, murderers, especially serial killers…. 334 00:19:54,861 --> 00:19:56,488 However, the final measure was… 335 00:19:56,738 --> 00:19:59,616 ...one night when I heard a rumble on the fire escape. 336 00:19:59,824 --> 00:20:02,369 I called the police and the cops came, eventually. 337 00:20:02,577 --> 00:20:06,081 3 hours later. Yes, after I was already raped and killed. 338 00:20:06,706 --> 00:20:09,167 No, but they were men and a policewoman. 339 00:20:09,417 --> 00:20:11,419 I explained to them what I was heard... 340 00:20:11,628 --> 00:20:13,922 when the policewoman had to move the car. 341 00:20:14,089 --> 00:20:15,799 So that I was alone with a police officer. 342 00:20:15,965 --> 00:20:20,428 He immediately asked me if I had any a gun. No, I said, "no of course not". 343 00:20:20,637 --> 00:20:23,515 Then he said to me, "You better start think about getting one. 344 00:20:23,723 --> 00:20:27,018 This is America, not France Right?" 345 00:20:27,227 --> 00:20:30,355 And I told him that with a gun I don't know how to shoot yet... 346 00:20:30,563 --> 00:20:33,024 ...and that I have no interest regarding firearms. 347 00:20:33,274 --> 00:20:37,028 And that's when he pulled out his gun and said: 348 00:20:37,278 --> 00:20:42,742 "Well one day you will something like that before your xixth... 349 00:20:42,992 --> 00:20:45,328 ...and if you want to live long... 350 00:20:45,912 --> 00:20:49,708 ... you will have to choose among themselves and among them." 351 00:20:50,792 --> 00:20:55,171 And then they went. And the following I called in the morning for a request, to carry a weapon. 352 00:20:55,380 --> 00:20:57,841 Me with a gun. This is really terrible. 353 00:20:58,091 --> 00:21:00,218 Then I realized that something was wrong. 354 00:21:00,427 --> 00:21:03,972 The way the cop pulled over out your gun and all. 355 00:21:04,180 --> 00:21:06,016 So I canceled the request for a gun... 356 00:21:06,182 --> 00:21:09,310 ...and called the police, yes I would complain to that policeman. 357 00:21:09,477 --> 00:21:12,063 What happened? There was so much paper work… 358 00:21:12,230 --> 00:21:15,066 ...and then I got scared, with my crappy student visa... 359 00:21:15,233 --> 00:21:17,652 Did you think they were going to kick you out? Exactly. I gave up... 360 00:21:17,819 --> 00:21:19,571 ...and forgot about the whole thing. 361 00:21:19,821 --> 00:21:23,408 Well, I never forgot. Obviously. 362 00:21:23,616 --> 00:21:26,161 But I'm still very much I enjoyed being there. 363 00:21:26,369 --> 00:21:29,497 There are many things I miss regarding the USA. Yes, what for example? 364 00:21:31,458 --> 00:21:33,043 Ah... 365 00:21:33,251 --> 00:21:35,712 Overall, good mood, which the people there have. 366 00:21:35,962 --> 00:21:38,048 Although sometimes it is more shit. 367 00:21:38,214 --> 00:21:41,009 Like, "How are you?" "Awesome". "How are you?" "Great!" 368 00:21:41,426 --> 00:21:43,553 "Have a great day!" 369 00:21:43,970 --> 00:21:47,599 I don't know. Parisians can be so perfect. Did you notice? 370 00:21:47,807 --> 00:21:50,435 No, I think they're all fine happy. 371 00:21:51,144 --> 00:21:54,064 They are not happy. No. Aren't they happy? 372 00:21:54,230 --> 00:21:57,609 They are not. I don't know. I mean on The French. They're driving me crazy. 373 00:21:57,817 --> 00:21:59,194 About what. What about them? 374 00:21:59,527 --> 00:22:02,530 They are very friendly. It's great when you're with them. 375 00:22:02,739 --> 00:22:04,741 They love food, wine, they are wonderful cooks. 376 00:22:04,908 --> 00:22:06,910 But I have with them just an accident. 377 00:22:07,077 --> 00:22:08,703 Why? What do you mean? 378 00:22:09,537 --> 00:22:12,540 Yeah, I don't think so... What? 379 00:22:12,749 --> 00:22:14,292 What do you call it? 380 00:22:15,377 --> 00:22:18,630 Necessary? They are not so necessary. Necessary? 381 00:22:18,880 --> 00:22:23,134 Now listen to me. Regarding I am proud to be an American. 382 00:22:23,343 --> 00:22:25,261 And rightly so. Just about that. 383 00:22:26,429 --> 00:22:28,431 Have you ever been to Eastern Europe? 384 00:22:28,890 --> 00:22:31,393 Eastern...No I wasn't. Thank you. 385 00:22:32,435 --> 00:22:34,979 As a teenager I remember when I went to Warsaw... 386 00:22:35,188 --> 00:22:37,732 ...when he was still pronounced there communist regime. 387 00:22:37,941 --> 00:22:40,318 Which personally I don't at all I approve. Of course not. 388 00:22:40,527 --> 00:22:42,529 I really don't. I'm just kidding. 389 00:22:42,696 --> 00:22:45,615 Basically, something was very interesting while staying there. 390 00:22:45,782 --> 00:22:48,993 After a few weeks, it did changed something in me. 391 00:22:49,202 --> 00:22:52,330 The city was rather dreary and gray... 392 00:22:52,539 --> 00:22:55,291 ...but, after a while, my own reason seemed clearer to me. 393 00:22:55,458 --> 00:22:57,127 I log a lot more pens... 394 00:22:57,335 --> 00:23:00,505 ...ideas for which before at all I didn't know...Communist ideas? 395 00:23:00,714 --> 00:23:02,841 Listen... Forgive me... 396 00:23:03,091 --> 00:23:04,843 All right. Carry on. 397 00:23:05,051 --> 00:23:07,637 Right. I'll send you later to the gulag. 398 00:23:07,804 --> 00:23:11,266 No. But it just took a while time to figure out what's different? 399 00:23:11,433 --> 00:23:14,102 One day when I was walking across the Jewish cemetery... 400 00:23:14,269 --> 00:23:16,187 ...I don't know why, but that's when it dawned on me... 401 00:23:16,354 --> 00:23:20,191 ...that I have been for the last two weeks survived without most of her habits. 402 00:23:20,400 --> 00:23:22,360 Television was in foreign language... 403 00:23:22,569 --> 00:23:25,321 there was nothing to buy no ads anywhere... 404 00:23:25,488 --> 00:23:27,115 ...so everything I did... 405 00:23:27,282 --> 00:23:32,037 ...walked around, thought and pens. I was resting my brain... 406 00:23:32,245 --> 00:23:35,832 far from a consumer frenzy. As if she were naturally stunned. 407 00:23:36,041 --> 00:23:40,587 I felt very calm. No desire to be anywhere else... 408 00:23:40,795 --> 00:23:42,130 ...to go shopping... 409 00:23:42,339 --> 00:23:44,466 At first it seems boring… 410 00:23:44,632 --> 00:23:46,384 ...but it became very, very emotional. 411 00:23:47,427 --> 00:23:48,970 It was interesting, you know? 412 00:23:49,137 --> 00:23:52,474 Can you believe it's been 9 years already since we walked in Vienna? 413 00:23:52,974 --> 00:23:56,686 9 years? No, impossible. It's not true. Seems like two months to me. 414 00:23:56,895 --> 00:23:58,813 But it was the summer of '94. 415 00:24:01,024 --> 00:24:03,318 Do I look different? 416 00:24:04,903 --> 00:24:06,613 Do I look? 417 00:24:07,405 --> 00:24:08,656 I should see you naked. 418 00:24:09,032 --> 00:24:10,992 What? I know, sorry. 419 00:24:11,201 --> 00:24:13,578 You had a different hairstyle. She was... 420 00:24:13,745 --> 00:24:16,164 It's the same... Alas, lowered. Yes, let your hair down. 421 00:24:16,331 --> 00:24:18,083 Dropped. Right, they were dropped. Right. 422 00:24:18,291 --> 00:24:20,418 Well? 423 00:24:20,710 --> 00:24:22,212 So? 424 00:24:24,255 --> 00:24:26,424 Ah, come on. Tell me. 425 00:24:29,719 --> 00:24:32,263 You're a little thinner, I think. A little thinner. 426 00:24:33,348 --> 00:24:34,891 Did you think I was fat before? 427 00:24:35,100 --> 00:24:38,019 No... You thought I was fat. 428 00:24:38,228 --> 00:24:42,232 No, you thought I was fat. You wrote a book about a fat French girl. 429 00:24:42,440 --> 00:24:44,359 Don't listen. Oh no. 430 00:24:44,567 --> 00:24:46,695 Seriously, okay? You look wonderful. 431 00:24:46,903 --> 00:24:48,905 Do I look different? 432 00:24:49,239 --> 00:24:52,784 No. Not even. Basically, you have one line. 433 00:24:52,992 --> 00:24:55,412 I know. It's like a scar. 434 00:24:55,620 --> 00:25:00,041 A scar? Like a gunshot wound? No, no. I like it. Sorry. 435 00:25:01,376 --> 00:25:06,172 I had funny... Well, a terrible dream the other day. 436 00:25:07,215 --> 00:25:11,261 I had a nightmare that I am 32 years old. 437 00:25:11,428 --> 00:25:14,639 Then I woke up aged 23. Very relieved. 438 00:25:14,848 --> 00:25:17,434 Then I actually woke up, 32 years old. 439 00:25:17,642 --> 00:25:20,103 Shit man. It happens. Terrible. 440 00:25:20,311 --> 00:25:22,981 Time is passing faster and faster. Obviously, because 441 00:25:23,148 --> 00:25:26,609 after twenty, we do not renew more nerve fibers so that it only goes down. 442 00:25:27,777 --> 00:25:30,780 I like aging. Life goes on... 443 00:25:31,072 --> 00:25:34,617 ...I don't know. More directly. I appreciate things more. 444 00:25:35,493 --> 00:25:38,079 Me too. I really like it. 445 00:25:38,538 --> 00:25:40,331 I was once... 446 00:25:40,540 --> 00:25:41,916 ...the drummer in the band. 447 00:25:42,125 --> 00:25:44,711 were you Yes. We were pretty good. 448 00:25:44,919 --> 00:25:49,132 But the main member, he was like that obsessed with making it happen. 449 00:25:49,299 --> 00:25:52,260 That's all we talked about how to perform more widely. 450 00:25:52,469 --> 00:25:55,972 Everything was always directed towards the future. Now... 451 00:25:56,139 --> 00:25:58,016 ...the group at all anymore does not exist. 452 00:25:58,183 --> 00:26:00,518 when i remember how we played... 453 00:26:00,727 --> 00:26:03,646 just when we were practicing it was so much fun. 454 00:26:03,813 --> 00:26:08,026 I would enjoy it even more now. Can I have a smoke? 455 00:26:08,276 --> 00:26:11,321 Well, your book is published. This is a big deal. 456 00:26:11,529 --> 00:26:14,783 You've been all over Europe. Are you enjoying every moment? 457 00:26:15,492 --> 00:26:17,369 Not even. Not even? 458 00:26:17,577 --> 00:26:18,953 No. 459 00:26:19,496 --> 00:26:22,165 Do you have any more? Yes, of course. 460 00:26:24,250 --> 00:26:25,794 There you go. 461 00:26:26,670 --> 00:26:29,798 In my field, I see people who... I'm sorry. 462 00:26:30,006 --> 00:26:32,509 They come there with big ideas… 463 00:26:32,717 --> 00:26:35,470 ...that they will become leaders who will created a better world. 464 00:26:35,637 --> 00:26:37,847 They enjoy the goal, but not in work. 465 00:26:38,056 --> 00:26:39,891 Why not? But in reality... 466 00:26:40,100 --> 00:26:43,520 ...are real improvements in little things. 467 00:26:43,728 --> 00:26:46,690 You have to enjoy it. What do you mean? 468 00:26:46,898 --> 00:26:50,485 I worked for an organization which helped villages in Mexico. 469 00:26:51,152 --> 00:26:53,655 Their problem was that how to bring pencils 470 00:26:53,822 --> 00:26:56,241 to children in those rural schools. 471 00:26:56,408 --> 00:27:00,245 It wasn't about big, revolutionary things ideas. It was pencils. 472 00:27:00,620 --> 00:27:04,040 I see people doing actual work and which is sad 473 00:27:04,457 --> 00:27:07,002 is that the most hardworking and dedicated 474 00:27:07,168 --> 00:27:09,379 and capable of something improve in the world... 475 00:27:09,587 --> 00:27:12,716 ...they usually have no ambitions, to be leaders. 476 00:27:12,924 --> 00:27:15,552 They see no interest in shallow rewards. 477 00:27:15,760 --> 00:27:18,805 They don't care if they ever do appear in print. 478 00:27:19,014 --> 00:27:21,808 They actually enjoy it, to help others. 479 00:27:22,017 --> 00:27:24,728 They live for that moment. Yes, but it's so hard. 480 00:27:24,894 --> 00:27:27,814 you know, living for the moment. I mean, I feel that... 481 00:27:27,981 --> 00:27:31,943 ...I am made to be a bit unsatisfied with everything. 482 00:27:32,152 --> 00:27:34,612 I'm always trying to improve your position. 483 00:27:34,863 --> 00:27:38,324 When I satisfy one wish, another immediately appears. 484 00:27:38,491 --> 00:27:42,037 Then it doesn't matter to me, because desires are the fuel of life. 485 00:27:42,203 --> 00:27:45,040 You know? You think it's true... 486 00:27:45,248 --> 00:27:48,126 ...that if we never wanted anything would you never be unhappy? 487 00:27:48,376 --> 00:27:53,423 I don't know. To want nothing. What isn't Is this a sign of depression? 488 00:27:53,590 --> 00:27:57,218 Yes, that's right, isn't it? it seems to me that it is healthy to want. 489 00:27:57,427 --> 00:28:01,056 Yes. I don't know. That's what everyone says those buddhists, right? 490 00:28:01,264 --> 00:28:03,641 Free yourself from desire and you will be found out 491 00:28:03,808 --> 00:28:06,978 that you already have everything what you need. But I feel alive… 492 00:28:07,228 --> 00:28:09,981 ...when I want more than only basic human necessities, 493 00:28:10,190 --> 00:28:12,984 Consider it intimacy with another person... 494 00:28:13,234 --> 00:28:14,986 ...or a pair of shoes. 495 00:28:15,195 --> 00:28:18,740 I love that we have constantly renewing desires. 496 00:28:18,948 --> 00:28:20,658 Maybe it matters why you prioritize. 497 00:28:20,867 --> 00:28:24,621 You know, whenever you feel that you deserve those new shoes. 498 00:28:24,829 --> 00:28:28,667 It's okay to want something as long as you don't get mad if you don't get it. 499 00:28:28,875 --> 00:28:30,752 Life is hard. It has to be. 500 00:28:30,960 --> 00:28:33,963 If we didn't suffer, we wouldn't learned nothing, you know? 501 00:28:35,340 --> 00:28:37,258 Are you a Buddhist or something similar? 502 00:28:38,301 --> 00:28:40,970 No. No? Why not? 503 00:28:41,388 --> 00:28:46,142 I don't know. For the same reason I don't consider it to be anything. 504 00:28:46,518 --> 00:28:49,938 I decided a long time ago, that I will be open to everything 505 00:28:50,146 --> 00:28:52,649 but no one-sided beliefs. 506 00:28:54,275 --> 00:28:57,404 I went to a Trappist once monastery a few years ago. 507 00:28:57,987 --> 00:29:01,866 Trappist? They are Catholics. The Cistercians. 508 00:29:02,117 --> 00:29:05,704 Why did you do that? Why? I was reading something. 509 00:29:05,954 --> 00:29:09,791 I thought it was good. Have you spent any time with monks and nuns? 510 00:29:10,125 --> 00:29:13,461 No. Not really my style. No? 511 00:29:14,254 --> 00:29:18,299 I expected them to be gloomy and stern but they were not. 512 00:29:18,508 --> 00:29:21,052 They loved to laugh, they were pleasant. 513 00:29:21,302 --> 00:29:24,305 Seriously, very open to all, they were... 514 00:29:24,556 --> 00:29:26,975 You know, nobody they did not force anything. 515 00:29:27,183 --> 00:29:29,686 They tried to live and die at peace with god... 516 00:29:29,894 --> 00:29:32,355 ...or with something else, which seemed eternal to them. 517 00:29:32,605 --> 00:29:34,566 Being around them is was very charitable. 518 00:29:34,733 --> 00:29:37,193 You find that most of them the people you meet... 519 00:29:37,402 --> 00:29:39,195 ...trying to get to a better position. 520 00:29:39,362 --> 00:29:42,574 They strive to earn more, more respect... 521 00:29:42,782 --> 00:29:45,201 ...so that more people appreciate them. It's tiring. 522 00:29:45,410 --> 00:29:48,538 What you don't say. It's tiring to be like that yourself. 523 00:29:48,747 --> 00:29:52,083 I'm there, you know all greedy for spirituality. 524 00:29:52,292 --> 00:29:55,879 "I want to be a better person", do you know You can't leave. 525 00:29:56,046 --> 00:30:02,218 I had a boyfriend years ago who wanted to become a Buddhist. 526 00:30:02,594 --> 00:30:05,096 He went to Asia, to see some monasteries. 527 00:30:05,347 --> 00:30:09,059 I thought too to go. Maybe I should. I'll tell you why. 528 00:30:09,267 --> 00:30:12,604 He was handsome and every time he went to some monastery... 529 00:30:12,812 --> 00:30:15,440 one of the monks offered him farting. 530 00:30:15,648 --> 00:30:17,359 A true story. 531 00:30:17,817 --> 00:30:20,737 It all ends with why not? 532 00:30:20,945 --> 00:30:23,114 That's why I appreciate it, what you do 533 00:30:23,323 --> 00:30:25,450 You know? What do you think? Blowing? 534 00:30:25,658 --> 00:30:28,787 No. No? Wrong answer. 535 00:30:28,995 --> 00:30:32,791 No, I meant you didn't alienated from life. 536 00:30:32,999 --> 00:30:35,418 You bring your passion into actions. 537 00:30:35,627 --> 00:30:38,296 Well, I'm trying. 538 00:30:38,922 --> 00:30:42,300 You know what? On airplanes 539 00:30:42,467 --> 00:30:44,803 and I'll be at the airport next 8 hours... 540 00:30:45,011 --> 00:30:47,389 ...I'd be happy to take a look a little more Paris. 541 00:30:47,681 --> 00:30:49,140 Would you take a walk with me? Yes. 542 00:30:49,307 --> 00:30:50,642 Are you up for it? Yes, great. 543 00:30:50,850 --> 00:30:52,769 Would you like to go? Yeah, let's go. Yes. 544 00:30:52,977 --> 00:30:54,813 How much do we owe? Half past four? 545 00:30:55,021 --> 00:30:57,565 No it's fine I still have a few days left. 546 00:30:57,732 --> 00:30:59,984 Is this a good tip? Yes, it's good. 547 00:31:00,193 --> 00:31:02,529 Is that more than enough? Add this to it. 548 00:31:02,779 --> 00:31:06,282 Is there anything interesting near here? There are sales today. 549 00:31:06,491 --> 00:31:09,411 What is this? This is when everything in Paris is on sale. 550 00:31:09,911 --> 00:31:11,329 This is twice a year. 551 00:31:13,832 --> 00:31:15,500 Okay, let's go shopping. 552 00:31:15,667 --> 00:31:18,795 No, no, no. Bad idea. I don't want to be intrusive. 553 00:31:19,004 --> 00:31:22,924 It's crazy. Here we go, on the way through the park. It's very nice. 554 00:31:23,216 --> 00:31:25,677 Right. It sounds better like shopping. 555 00:31:25,844 --> 00:31:27,971 Not that I don't want to do it, whatever you want. 556 00:31:28,138 --> 00:31:31,141 Sometimes I don't need anything to buy. I'm already hit 557 00:31:31,307 --> 00:31:33,101 from measuring and watching products. 558 00:31:33,268 --> 00:31:35,020 Shall we go this way? 559 00:31:35,228 --> 00:31:37,480 Yes. A psychiatrist would tell you, that this is good. 560 00:31:37,647 --> 00:31:40,025 What really? Are you ever on therapy? Ah, no. 561 00:31:40,233 --> 00:31:43,278 Do I look like I'm walking? to therapy? Just kidding. 562 00:31:43,695 --> 00:31:47,532 Does it help you with sexual problems? Sexual problems? 563 00:31:47,699 --> 00:31:49,200 Just kidding. Tell me the truth. 564 00:31:49,451 --> 00:31:51,703 We had no problems. No, I'm kidding. 565 00:31:51,911 --> 00:31:54,372 We haven't had sex yet. It's a joke, right? 566 00:31:54,581 --> 00:31:57,208 No, we really didn't. I mean, because that was it. 567 00:31:57,417 --> 00:31:59,461 Of course we are. No, we're not. 568 00:31:59,669 --> 00:32:02,464 You didn't have a condom and I never have sex without him. 569 00:32:02,672 --> 00:32:04,549 I'm very paranoid. There is no way... 570 00:32:04,758 --> 00:32:07,302 I'm afraid not you remember what happened. 571 00:32:07,469 --> 00:32:08,845 No, listen... 572 00:32:09,012 --> 00:32:11,723 ...I didn't write a book, I kept a diary... 573 00:32:11,931 --> 00:32:15,852 ...and I described the whole night in it. That's why I thought you were beautifying her. 574 00:32:16,061 --> 00:32:19,314 Okay, listen, there's more to it I remember which brand we used. 575 00:32:19,481 --> 00:32:21,399 This is disgusting. I don't want to hear it. 576 00:32:21,566 --> 00:32:24,110 It's not disgusting. No. 577 00:32:24,361 --> 00:32:28,865 Alright when I get home I will checked the log, but I know I'm right. 578 00:32:31,743 --> 00:32:33,661 Wait a minute. What? 579 00:32:33,828 --> 00:32:36,581 Are we in a cemetery? No. 580 00:32:36,790 --> 00:32:39,167 No, we're going to the cemetery went in the afternoon. 581 00:32:39,334 --> 00:32:42,253 It was in the park, very late at night. 582 00:32:42,629 --> 00:32:44,756 In the park? Wait a minute, wait a minute. 583 00:32:44,964 --> 00:32:46,758 I can't... 584 00:32:47,717 --> 00:32:51,012 Is it so easy to forget? Yes you really don't remember? In the park? 585 00:32:51,221 --> 00:32:54,057 Okay. Wait a minute. I think you're right. 586 00:32:54,265 --> 00:32:55,600 Now you're teasing me. 587 00:32:55,809 --> 00:32:57,185 No. Are you kidding me? 588 00:32:57,394 --> 00:33:00,563 Okay. I'm sorry. I mean... I mean, you're right, okay? 589 00:33:00,772 --> 00:33:04,234 Sometimes I overdo things and then I forget them. 590 00:33:04,442 --> 00:33:07,112 It's less painful if things you forget as if you live with them. 591 00:33:07,320 --> 00:33:10,031 What is that night for you? sad memory? 592 00:33:10,240 --> 00:33:12,075 I didn't just mean it on this night. 593 00:33:12,242 --> 00:33:14,285 I thought it was fixed things are better forgotten. 594 00:33:14,536 --> 00:33:17,038 I remember that night better, like whole years. 595 00:33:17,247 --> 00:33:19,040 Me too. Really? 596 00:33:19,207 --> 00:33:21,376 But it seemed so to me. 597 00:33:24,004 --> 00:33:27,632 Maybe I am...Maybe I am forgot her because of... 598 00:33:27,841 --> 00:33:30,969 because of grandma's funeral, which was on the day they were supposed to see each other. 599 00:33:31,177 --> 00:33:34,139 It was a hard day for me, but it must have been worse for you. 600 00:33:34,347 --> 00:33:38,935 It was unreal. I remember when I looked at her in the coffin... 601 00:33:39,102 --> 00:33:43,481 ...her beautiful hands, so warm, so pleasant, who hugged me... 602 00:33:43,982 --> 00:33:47,277 ...but there is nothing in my coffin reminded of her. 603 00:33:47,444 --> 00:33:48,987 All the heat is gone. 604 00:33:49,279 --> 00:33:52,073 And then I cried... 605 00:33:52,240 --> 00:33:57,829 ...because I will never see her again or because I won't see you again. 606 00:33:58,038 --> 00:34:01,833 Sorry. I'm sorry to say so i speak I'm having a bad week. 607 00:34:02,083 --> 00:34:05,086 Why? I don't know. It's nothing serious... 608 00:34:05,295 --> 00:34:07,255 Maybe because I was reading your book. 609 00:34:07,422 --> 00:34:11,301 No, but... Come to think of it, how I was full of hope then... 610 00:34:11,509 --> 00:34:13,720 ...and since then it's been... 611 00:34:14,304 --> 00:34:15,680 I don't know. 612 00:34:15,889 --> 00:34:20,018 Memory is a wonderful thing, if the past is behind you. 613 00:34:22,771 --> 00:34:25,607 "Memory is a wonderful thing, if the past is behind you." 614 00:34:25,774 --> 00:34:27,442 But can I use this for a bumper sticker? 615 00:34:27,609 --> 00:34:30,320 If I wrote a book about us night, that's a good title. 616 00:34:30,487 --> 00:34:34,366 It could be very different book. Yes, no sex. 617 00:34:34,949 --> 00:34:36,284 But you know what? What? 618 00:34:36,493 --> 00:34:37,869 Now that we have met again... 619 00:34:38,078 --> 00:34:40,705 ...we can change our memory on that 16th of December. 620 00:34:40,872 --> 00:34:44,292 No more sad end when we never see each other again. 621 00:34:44,501 --> 00:34:48,963 Yes. In my opinion, memory never it doesn't end while you're alive. 622 00:34:49,172 --> 00:34:52,759 Yes, I know. I remember something from childhood... 623 00:34:52,967 --> 00:34:55,553 ...for which I have been recently realized that it didn't happen. - What? 624 00:34:55,720 --> 00:34:58,682 When I was 8, 9 years old, my mother was so scared… 625 00:34:58,848 --> 00:35:01,726 ...when I was walking home in the evening from learning the piano... 626 00:35:01,893 --> 00:35:04,562 ...that she used to warn me about old dirty people with sweets... 627 00:35:04,771 --> 00:35:06,564 ...that show udders. 628 00:35:06,773 --> 00:35:09,859 She was so obsessed, that I'm later, you know... 629 00:35:10,026 --> 00:35:13,405 ...thought that was it really happened. 630 00:35:13,613 --> 00:35:17,158 I even associated sex with that walk home. 631 00:35:17,325 --> 00:35:21,037 I mean, sometimes, still even now when... 632 00:35:21,913 --> 00:35:25,875 When I have sex, I can see how I walk home on that street. 633 00:35:26,042 --> 00:35:27,919 I swear. It's so weird no? 634 00:35:28,128 --> 00:35:32,340 Is this street anywhere near? I mean could you...? No. 635 00:35:32,507 --> 00:35:34,718 It's very far. 636 00:35:35,885 --> 00:35:38,388 Have you ever kept a diary when you were little 637 00:35:38,596 --> 00:35:41,933 Yes. I'm a little bit there. 638 00:35:42,100 --> 00:35:44,269 It's funny. Read it I am one 639 00:35:44,436 --> 00:35:46,312 the previous day from l. '83. -Yes? 640 00:35:46,646 --> 00:35:48,273 And what really surprised me... 641 00:35:48,481 --> 00:35:51,401 ...was that I am for life looked the same as now. 642 00:35:51,609 --> 00:35:53,570 I was more hopeful and more naive... 643 00:35:53,778 --> 00:35:58,074 ...but in my heart I still am felt the same as now. 644 00:35:58,241 --> 00:36:00,577 I realized that at all I haven't changed much. 645 00:36:00,744 --> 00:36:02,245 I don't think anyone does. 646 00:36:02,412 --> 00:36:06,207 People don't want to admit it, but we have some innate qualities… 647 00:36:06,374 --> 00:36:09,961 ...and no event can, what comes to change our inclinations. 648 00:36:10,170 --> 00:36:11,629 Do you believe that? I think so. 649 00:36:11,796 --> 00:36:15,133 I read about some research that dealt with lottery winners... 650 00:36:15,300 --> 00:36:17,135 and the people they became paraplegics. 651 00:36:17,344 --> 00:36:21,473 You'd think one thing would make you happy, and destroyed the other. 652 00:36:21,681 --> 00:36:24,392 However, research shows that after half a year... 653 00:36:24,559 --> 00:36:27,812 ...what people have become accustomed to to new conditions... 654 00:36:28,021 --> 00:36:30,315 ...were more or less the same as earlier. Same as before? 655 00:36:30,523 --> 00:36:33,735 Yes. If before they were mainly optimistic, happy people... 656 00:36:33,902 --> 00:36:36,738 they are now optimistic, happy people in a wheelchair. 657 00:36:36,946 --> 00:36:38,907 If the donkeys are infected... 658 00:36:39,074 --> 00:36:43,036 ...are now infested donkeys with a new one a car, a house and a yacht. 659 00:36:43,203 --> 00:36:46,498 So I will be depressed forever, regardless of pleasant events? 660 00:36:46,706 --> 00:36:48,083 - For sure. - Beautiful. 661 00:36:48,249 --> 00:36:49,959 Oh come on. You are currently depressed? 662 00:36:50,126 --> 00:36:52,420 No, no, I'm not depressed. 663 00:36:52,587 --> 00:36:55,256 But sometimes I worry that I will came to the end of her life... 664 00:36:55,423 --> 00:36:58,968 ...and felt that I was not everything achieved.- What would you like to achieve? 665 00:36:59,135 --> 00:37:00,845 I... 666 00:37:01,012 --> 00:37:04,015 I would like to paint more, I would played my guitar every day. 667 00:37:04,224 --> 00:37:07,435 I would like to learn Chinese. I would like to write more songs. 668 00:37:07,602 --> 00:37:11,940 There are many things I would like to do, but in the end I do less. 669 00:37:12,857 --> 00:37:18,697 Let me ask you: Do you believe into spirits or souls? 670 00:37:18,863 --> 00:37:20,198 No. 671 00:37:20,407 --> 00:37:21,700 No? -No. 672 00:37:21,908 --> 00:37:25,662 Ok, how about reincarnation? - Not even. 673 00:37:25,829 --> 00:37:27,789 To God? -No. 674 00:37:27,956 --> 00:37:30,458 -Okay. - That sounds terrible. No, no, no. 675 00:37:30,625 --> 00:37:34,546 But I don't want to be one of them those who believe in nothing. 676 00:37:34,713 --> 00:37:36,631 So what, astrology? - Yes, of course! 677 00:37:36,798 --> 00:37:38,633 There we go. - That makes sense, doesn't it? 678 00:37:38,800 --> 00:37:42,220 you are a scorpio I'm an Aquarius, we get along. 679 00:37:43,138 --> 00:37:44,973 No, no, no. 680 00:37:45,140 --> 00:37:48,184 There is an Einstein quote, which I really, really like. 681 00:37:48,351 --> 00:37:51,855 He said, "If you don't believe in magic and secrets... 682 00:37:52,022 --> 00:37:54,858 ...it's better if you're dead -Yes, I like it. 683 00:37:55,025 --> 00:37:58,361 I always felt there was some mysterious core in the universe. 684 00:37:58,528 --> 00:38:03,742 Lately I've started, more to think that I, my personality, however... 685 00:38:03,908 --> 00:38:06,995 That I don't have any here, permanent place, you know? 686 00:38:07,162 --> 00:38:08,830 In eternity or whatever already. 687 00:38:08,997 --> 00:38:12,834 The more I think about it, it's harder to take life lightly. 688 00:38:13,001 --> 00:38:16,504 That's it. It actually does happening. What is interesting to me? 689 00:38:16,671 --> 00:38:18,840 What do I find funny? What is important? 690 00:38:19,049 --> 00:38:21,343 You know, every day is our last. 691 00:38:21,718 --> 00:38:25,221 When I feel like this, usually I call my mom to tell her I love her. 692 00:38:25,388 --> 00:38:27,015 -Yes? She always says: 693 00:38:27,182 --> 00:38:31,269 "Are you okay? Do you have cancer? Are you going to commit suicide?" 694 00:38:31,478 --> 00:38:34,105 It's almost not worth it. 695 00:38:35,315 --> 00:38:38,109 So what about us? 696 00:38:38,276 --> 00:38:40,779 What about us? - No, what I mean is... 697 00:38:40,987 --> 00:38:44,574 ...if we both died tonight... -Like the end of the world is coming? 698 00:38:44,741 --> 00:38:48,870 No, too dramatic...But what if only the two of us died? 699 00:38:49,037 --> 00:38:50,997 I mean, would you like to talk about your book? 700 00:38:51,164 --> 00:38:53,917 - About the environment? Or... -If today was our last day? 701 00:38:54,084 --> 00:38:56,711 Yes, what would you like to talk about? What would you tell me? 702 00:38:56,878 --> 00:38:58,421 Well... That's hard, isn't it? 703 00:38:58,588 --> 00:38:59,923 No, no, I will tell. -Right. 704 00:39:00,090 --> 00:39:02,550 I would certainly stop talking about my book. 705 00:39:02,717 --> 00:39:05,387 I would probably stop talking about the environment. - Okay. 706 00:39:05,553 --> 00:39:09,474 But I would still speak, o magic in space. 707 00:39:09,683 --> 00:39:12,894 I would only like to do this in... - Where? 708 00:39:13,061 --> 00:39:14,646 ...in a hotel room, you know... 709 00:39:14,854 --> 00:39:18,650 during the course of our wild fucking to death. 710 00:39:18,817 --> 00:39:21,653 Oh. Well, why waste it? time with a hotel room? 711 00:39:21,820 --> 00:39:25,240 Why not right there on the bench? 712 00:39:25,990 --> 00:39:28,326 Come here, come, come. 713 00:39:28,535 --> 00:39:30,954 Okay. We will not die tonight. 714 00:39:31,121 --> 00:39:33,123 All right. Too bad. I'm sorry. 715 00:39:33,331 --> 00:39:34,833 This was an extreme case. 716 00:39:35,041 --> 00:39:37,502 I'm sorry. - Okay. 717 00:39:37,669 --> 00:39:39,337 What... My point was, you know... 718 00:39:39,504 --> 00:39:42,340 ...real communication with it's hard for people. 719 00:39:42,507 --> 00:39:45,301 No, because I know that most of ours daily conversations... 720 00:39:45,468 --> 00:39:46,970 Yeah, no, I mean... 721 00:39:47,178 --> 00:39:49,806 ...let's not go back to sex - But why not? 722 00:39:49,973 --> 00:39:53,101 No, this case, this friend of mine, she talked about... 723 00:39:53,268 --> 00:39:56,312 - Her and her boyfriend...Trouble in bed. - Of course. 724 00:39:56,521 --> 00:39:59,983 What was it like when they were she dated him for a year or so... 725 00:40:00,191 --> 00:40:03,153 ...started talking about how to make her better satisfied and it scared him. 726 00:40:03,361 --> 00:40:04,696 Why? - Absolutely. 727 00:40:04,904 --> 00:40:06,865 She thinks that means that he is a bad lover... 728 00:40:07,073 --> 00:40:08,950 Maybe she shouldn't to wait a long time. 729 00:40:09,117 --> 00:40:11,494 After what year... - But men can be offended like that. 730 00:40:11,661 --> 00:40:14,164 What, more than women? - Certainly in this area. 731 00:40:14,330 --> 00:40:15,707 Do you think so? - Yes, yes. 732 00:40:16,458 --> 00:40:18,543 Yeah, maybe it's because… 733 00:40:18,752 --> 00:40:22,797 ...it's easier for men to...please. - Please? 734 00:40:23,006 --> 00:40:26,009 Well, I don't know? - Yes, they do. They sure do. 735 00:40:26,217 --> 00:40:28,345 Anyway, this friend, she told me... 736 00:40:28,511 --> 00:40:32,182 ...the next time she dates someone, will do a little questionnaire... 737 00:40:32,349 --> 00:40:35,810 ...about what they like and what they don't... - What will she write or say? 738 00:40:35,977 --> 00:40:37,729 Mostly written. 739 00:40:37,896 --> 00:40:41,566 The answers would not just be yes or no. It would be a little more detailed. 740 00:40:41,733 --> 00:40:45,195 For example, if the question is: "Do you like sado-mazo?" 741 00:40:45,403 --> 00:40:50,241 The answer could be: "No, but occasionally there's no harm in smacking." 742 00:40:50,408 --> 00:40:54,079 Yes, or: "Do you like to talk dirty in bed?" 743 00:40:54,287 --> 00:40:57,707 Things like that? - Yes, but not the usual foul language. 744 00:40:57,916 --> 00:41:00,251 Just "exactly which ones." words, would you like to hear?" 745 00:41:00,460 --> 00:41:01,753 What me? - Well, yes. 746 00:41:01,961 --> 00:41:04,589 For example, exactly which word would you like to hear 747 00:41:04,798 --> 00:41:06,424 I don't know. 748 00:41:07,926 --> 00:41:10,428 What do you mean? "kitten"? 749 00:41:10,637 --> 00:41:13,431 I love her. 750 00:41:13,807 --> 00:41:15,433 Good. 751 00:41:15,642 --> 00:41:18,645 It's amazing how we got along spoiled in nine years. 752 00:41:18,812 --> 00:41:22,107 At least now we don't have to pretend anymore, that every sex is... 753 00:41:22,273 --> 00:41:23,942 ...like a lifetime a changing event. 754 00:41:24,150 --> 00:41:27,612 I know. By now, you already had it in so many holes that it will fall off. 755 00:41:27,821 --> 00:41:31,533 But I can't expect that you have become something other than a highwayman. 756 00:41:31,700 --> 00:41:35,120 Yes, thank you? - Not only... 757 00:41:35,704 --> 00:41:38,707 That's true. What can you do? - What can you do? 758 00:41:38,873 --> 00:41:42,627 So what kind of songs do you write? I didn't know you were doing that. 759 00:41:42,836 --> 00:41:44,045 What kind? - Yes, of course? 760 00:41:44,212 --> 00:41:45,880 I don't know, ordinary songs. - Like? 761 00:41:46,047 --> 00:41:48,717 Some are, you know, about people. 762 00:41:48,883 --> 00:41:50,552 Relationships. One is about mine cats. 763 00:41:50,719 --> 00:41:53,221 Sing one. - I can't. I don't have a guitar. 764 00:41:53,388 --> 00:41:54,931 Come on. One short one. - No, no, no. 765 00:41:55,140 --> 00:41:58,309 She won't sing without a guitar. You are crazy. 766 00:41:58,810 --> 00:42:00,729 Why not? 767 00:42:00,895 --> 00:42:03,314 No, right. Not now. No. - One. 768 00:42:03,523 --> 00:42:06,776 When, if not now? I would like to met, in half a year with a guitar? 769 00:42:06,943 --> 00:42:08,445 I will fly here. 770 00:42:08,611 --> 00:42:11,614 Maybe you'll catch the tram, maybe no.- Ok, that's funny. 771 00:42:11,990 --> 00:42:14,075 We have to go back. - Everything will be fine. 772 00:42:14,242 --> 00:42:16,244 You're going to miss your flight. - Right. 773 00:42:16,411 --> 00:42:18,246 We can walk down the Seine. It's nice. 774 00:42:18,413 --> 00:42:19,956 Right. 775 00:42:20,582 --> 00:42:24,294 So you're flying back to New York? - Yes, yes. 776 00:42:26,171 --> 00:42:30,133 I read in that article that you are married with a child. That's great. 777 00:42:30,300 --> 00:42:32,802 Yes...He is four years old. 778 00:42:32,969 --> 00:42:35,180 What is his name? - Henry. Little Hank. 779 00:42:35,347 --> 00:42:38,141 He is very funny. - Oh yes, I'm sure. 780 00:42:38,308 --> 00:42:41,269 Your wife, what does she do? - He teaches in primary school. 781 00:42:41,811 --> 00:42:44,356 Do you have any children? - Yes, two... Shit! 782 00:42:44,564 --> 00:42:46,024 What? - I forgot them in the car! 783 00:42:46,191 --> 00:42:48,860 With the windows up, front half a year! Do you think they are okay? 784 00:42:49,027 --> 00:42:51,654 No, I'm kidding. No, but I would like to have them someday. 785 00:42:51,821 --> 00:42:53,698 I'm not ready yet. - No? 786 00:42:53,865 --> 00:42:57,035 But I'm in a good relationship. - What about me? That's good. 787 00:42:57,202 --> 00:42:59,287 What does he do? - He's a photojournalist. 788 00:42:59,454 --> 00:43:01,289 He reports from the hot spots of war. 789 00:43:01,456 --> 00:43:04,042 He travels a lot, which is good, because I'm very busy. 790 00:43:04,209 --> 00:43:08,296 Isn't that dangerous? What they don't kill many of these nowadays? 791 00:43:08,463 --> 00:43:11,716 He promises me he's careful, but I worry a lot. 792 00:43:11,883 --> 00:43:14,386 He falls into a trance, when taking a photo. 793 00:43:14,594 --> 00:43:17,889 What do you mean? - Well, we were once in New Delhi... 794 00:43:18,098 --> 00:43:19,557 ...and we passed a beggar... 795 00:43:19,766 --> 00:43:22,018 Bombs? - A beggar. A homeless man. 796 00:43:22,185 --> 00:43:23,520 Right, right. 797 00:43:23,687 --> 00:43:27,524 He looked like he needed help, but he started taking pictures of him. 798 00:43:27,691 --> 00:43:30,527 He came very close to his face, fixing his collar... 799 00:43:30,694 --> 00:43:32,404 ...completely separate from the person. 800 00:43:32,612 --> 00:43:35,365 Isn't that how you have to be that you are good at it? 801 00:43:35,532 --> 00:43:36,866 Yes, I mean, because he... 802 00:43:37,033 --> 00:43:40,161 I'm not judging him. What he does is important and amazing. 803 00:43:40,328 --> 00:43:42,414 I'm just saying yes I could never do that. 804 00:43:42,622 --> 00:43:44,374 Let's get on that ship. Come on. 805 00:43:44,541 --> 00:43:45,875 No! - Come, it will be fun. 806 00:43:46,042 --> 00:43:48,378 You don't have time! - They will sail away. 807 00:43:48,545 --> 00:43:50,922 I have 15 minutes left. Do you have a phone? 808 00:43:51,131 --> 00:43:53,425 Yes. - Okay, I have that driver's number. 809 00:43:53,633 --> 00:43:55,760 I can order him to come to the next station. 810 00:43:55,969 --> 00:43:59,848 I haven't been on these ships yet. It's for tourists, it's shameful. 811 00:44:00,015 --> 00:44:01,349 Okay. Right. 812 00:44:04,769 --> 00:44:06,396 No, I will, I will. 813 00:44:07,188 --> 00:44:09,774 Right. Right. 814 00:44:13,278 --> 00:44:14,612 Thank you. 815 00:44:14,779 --> 00:44:16,948 So, you're in love with that one type? - What type? 816 00:44:17,115 --> 00:44:20,452 A war photographer. - Yes, of course. 817 00:44:24,247 --> 00:44:26,458 Do you have that phone? 818 00:44:26,624 --> 00:44:28,376 Oh, yes. 819 00:44:28,543 --> 00:44:30,378 Ok, let's see... - Okay. 820 00:44:30,545 --> 00:44:31,880 What should I say to him? 821 00:44:32,047 --> 00:44:34,257 Tell him to pick you up at Quai Henri Quatre. 822 00:44:34,424 --> 00:44:37,218 Oh shit. Quai...? 823 00:44:37,385 --> 00:44:40,138 Henry Quatre. Quai Henri Quatre. 824 00:44:40,347 --> 00:44:42,390 Henry Quatre. 825 00:44:42,557 --> 00:44:45,560 What's the matter with you? No, what would you like to...? Henry Quatre. 826 00:44:45,727 --> 00:44:47,103 Henry the Fourth? - Yes! 827 00:44:47,270 --> 00:44:50,273 Come on, why didn't you tell me earlier? - Forgive me. All right. 828 00:45:02,410 --> 00:45:04,329 Yes, is that Philippe? 829 00:45:04,496 --> 00:45:07,165 Yes. Philippe, this is Jesse Wallace. 830 00:45:07,332 --> 00:45:08,667 Yes. 831 00:45:08,875 --> 00:45:13,129 Listen, I'm on one of them of those ships, right? 832 00:45:13,296 --> 00:45:16,174 And we will arrive at Henry the Fourth. 833 00:45:16,383 --> 00:45:19,761 On Henrik IV's Embankment. Do you know what this is? 834 00:45:19,928 --> 00:45:22,430 Okay, great. And you have my luggage, right? 835 00:45:22,597 --> 00:45:25,517 Yes, so that we will be there... I don't know the next station. 836 00:45:25,725 --> 00:45:28,103 Right. Goodbye. 837 00:45:29,187 --> 00:45:31,648 Is it okay? - Yes, yes. 838 00:45:31,815 --> 00:45:33,775 Oh, whoa. 839 00:45:33,942 --> 00:45:36,653 Notre Dame, man. Look at this. - Oh, whoa. 840 00:45:36,820 --> 00:45:40,824 I heard a story that when they The Germans occupied Paris... 841 00:45:40,990 --> 00:45:42,617 and had to return. 842 00:45:42,784 --> 00:45:44,744 They wired for explosives, over Notre Dame... 843 00:45:44,911 --> 00:45:49,165 ...but they had to let someone go that he initiated it. 844 00:45:49,332 --> 00:45:52,377 And the man, the soldier, he couldn't do it. 845 00:45:52,585 --> 00:45:56,297 He just sat there, transfixed from the beauty of the space. 846 00:45:56,464 --> 00:45:58,341 Then came the Allies... 847 00:45:58,508 --> 00:46:02,012 ...they found all the explosives there and an unturned switch... 848 00:46:02,178 --> 00:46:05,849 ...and the same was found at To the devoted heart, the Eiffel Tower... 849 00:46:06,016 --> 00:46:08,309 ...and a few other places it seems to me. 850 00:46:08,476 --> 00:46:10,395 Is that true? 851 00:46:10,603 --> 00:46:13,690 I don't know. Although I always liked the story. 852 00:46:13,857 --> 00:46:15,233 Yeah, that's a great story. 853 00:46:15,442 --> 00:46:18,319 But you have to think that Notre Dame will one day be gone. 854 00:46:18,486 --> 00:46:21,656 There used to be another church by the Seine, right there. 855 00:46:21,823 --> 00:46:24,659 Where, in the exact same place? - Yes. 856 00:46:26,119 --> 00:46:28,580 You know, that's great. I haven't done that before. 857 00:46:28,747 --> 00:46:31,374 Yes. - I keep forgetting how beautiful Paris is. 858 00:46:31,541 --> 00:46:33,168 It's not so bad to be a tourist. 859 00:46:33,335 --> 00:46:35,837 Thanks for getting me on board. - With pleasure. 860 00:46:36,004 --> 00:46:38,923 I think the writing was the one books, like building something... 861 00:46:39,424 --> 00:46:43,595 ...so as not to forget the details the time we spent together. 862 00:46:43,803 --> 00:46:47,557 You know, as a reminder of that, that we only met once in reality. 863 00:46:47,724 --> 00:46:50,685 You know it was real that it happened. 864 00:46:50,852 --> 00:46:52,854 I'm happy you say that because... 865 00:46:53,021 --> 00:46:57,275 I mean, I always feel like a sleeper because I never get over it like this: 866 00:46:58,443 --> 00:47:01,738 People have quite the love affair or entire relationships... 867 00:47:01,946 --> 00:47:04,282 ...they go apart and forget. 868 00:47:04,491 --> 00:47:08,370 They move on as if changed the cereal brand. 869 00:47:08,995 --> 00:47:12,248 I feel like I never could forget anyone I've been with... 870 00:47:12,415 --> 00:47:17,962 ...because everyone had their own special features. 871 00:47:18,171 --> 00:47:23,009 You can never someone replace. Lost cannot be returned. 872 00:47:24,177 --> 00:47:28,306 Every relationship, when it ends, me very affected. I never get over it. 873 00:47:28,515 --> 00:47:31,643 That's why I'm here very careful... 874 00:47:31,851 --> 00:47:33,895 ...because it hurts too much. 875 00:47:34,062 --> 00:47:37,232 Even during sex, I don't actually do that... 876 00:47:37,399 --> 00:47:40,318 ...because I will miss the characters the most human qualities. 877 00:47:40,485 --> 00:47:43,154 Like I'm possessed with details. 878 00:47:43,530 --> 00:47:45,824 Maybe I'm crazy, but when i was little... 879 00:47:46,032 --> 00:47:48,952 ...my mother always told me, that I was always late for school. 880 00:47:49,119 --> 00:47:51,496 One day she followed me, to find out why. 881 00:47:51,705 --> 00:47:56,001 I watched the chestnut as it fell from the trees, rolling on the pavement... 882 00:47:56,167 --> 00:48:01,923 ...or ants to cross the road, how a leaf casts a shadow on a tree trunk. 883 00:48:02,090 --> 00:48:04,134 Little things. 884 00:48:04,634 --> 00:48:06,469 I think it's the same with people. 885 00:48:06,970 --> 00:48:09,848 I see details in them, so special for everyone... 886 00:48:10,056 --> 00:48:14,185 ...that move me and that I will always missed. 887 00:48:14,352 --> 00:48:15,812 You can't replace anyone... 888 00:48:16,021 --> 00:48:19,983 ...because everyone is made up of such wonderful details. 889 00:48:23,445 --> 00:48:26,698 For example, I remember how yours is chin slightly red... 890 00:48:27,490 --> 00:48:30,160 ...and how she shone in the sun... 891 00:48:30,368 --> 00:48:33,163 ...that morning before you left. 892 00:48:34,080 --> 00:48:38,001 I remembered that and missed it. 893 00:48:38,168 --> 00:48:39,502 I'm really crazy, huh? 894 00:48:40,128 --> 00:48:44,049 I am convinced now. You want to know why did i write that stupid book 895 00:48:44,257 --> 00:48:47,177 Why? - To come to a lecture in Paris... 896 00:48:47,385 --> 00:48:51,556 ...and I would come to you and ask, "Where the fuck have you been?" 897 00:48:51,973 --> 00:48:54,184 No...Do you think she would come today? 898 00:48:54,351 --> 00:48:58,855 Seriously. I think I wrote it to find you 899 00:48:59,105 --> 00:49:01,191 Ok, that...I know that's not true... 900 00:49:01,358 --> 00:49:03,693 ...but it's nice of you. - I think it's true. 901 00:49:03,902 --> 00:49:06,363 What were the chances to meet again? 902 00:49:07,155 --> 00:49:10,367 After that December. Almost equal to nothing. 903 00:49:10,784 --> 00:49:12,827 But we're not real anyway, are we? 904 00:49:12,994 --> 00:49:16,206 We are just people in a dream those old ladies. 905 00:49:16,373 --> 00:49:18,750 He is lying on his deathbed, ter he dreams of his youth. 906 00:49:18,958 --> 00:49:21,044 Of course we had to meet again. 907 00:49:21,211 --> 00:49:25,131 Oh god. Why weren't you there in Vienna? 908 00:49:26,299 --> 00:49:30,053 You know why. - I know why, it's just... 909 00:49:30,220 --> 00:49:32,430 I wish she was. 910 00:49:32,639 --> 00:49:34,891 Our lives might be very different. 911 00:49:35,058 --> 00:49:37,268 You think? 912 00:49:37,435 --> 00:49:39,062 Yes, actually. 913 00:49:39,270 --> 00:49:42,399 Maybe not. Maybe we would eventually came to hate. 914 00:49:42,607 --> 00:49:45,443 Like we hate each other now? 915 00:49:46,403 --> 00:49:50,907 You know, maybe... Maybe we get along only in short meetings... 916 00:49:51,074 --> 00:49:55,286 ...when we walk around European cities, in a warm climate. 917 00:49:55,787 --> 00:49:58,915 Oh god. Why aren't we? exchanged tel. numbers and that? 918 00:49:59,082 --> 00:50:01,251 Why didn't we do that? 919 00:50:01,418 --> 00:50:03,795 Because we were young and stupid. 920 00:50:03,962 --> 00:50:06,256 Do you think we still are? 921 00:50:06,423 --> 00:50:08,550 I think when you're young you simply believe... 922 00:50:08,717 --> 00:50:11,261 ...to make a connection with many people. 923 00:50:11,928 --> 00:50:14,556 Later in life you see that it only happens a few times. 924 00:50:14,723 --> 00:50:18,309 And you can mess up too. You're wrong. 925 00:50:18,560 --> 00:50:20,979 The past is behind you. That's how you were meant to be. 926 00:50:21,146 --> 00:50:23,815 Do you really believe that? That everything is destined for us. 927 00:50:23,982 --> 00:50:27,944 Well, you know, the world may be less free than we think. 928 00:50:28,153 --> 00:50:29,821 Yes? 929 00:50:30,113 --> 00:50:33,992 In such a situation, this will happen every day. 930 00:50:34,200 --> 00:50:37,245 Two hydrogen atoms, one oxygen and you will get water every time. 931 00:50:37,412 --> 00:50:40,832 No, I mean, what if your grandmother did lived a week longer, you know? 932 00:50:40,999 --> 00:50:43,626 Did she pass away a week earlier? Or a few days? 933 00:50:43,793 --> 00:50:45,337 Maybe it would be different? 934 00:50:45,545 --> 00:50:49,758 You can't think like that, it's... - I know I shouldn't for the most part. 935 00:50:49,924 --> 00:50:55,138 Just this once, it seemed to me, like something broke, you know. 936 00:50:55,638 --> 00:50:59,351 A few months before the wedding, I thought about you constantly. 937 00:50:59,559 --> 00:51:03,355 Even on the way there, when I'm in the car a colleague drove towards the city... 938 00:51:03,563 --> 00:51:06,316 ...and I stared out the window and thought i saw you... 939 00:51:06,483 --> 00:51:08,651 not far from the church, no... 940 00:51:08,818 --> 00:51:11,321 ...how you open an umbrella and you go to the deli. 941 00:51:11,488 --> 00:51:15,116 ...on the corner of 13th and Broadway. 942 00:51:15,283 --> 00:51:18,828 I thought I was having a seizure. But now I think it was really you. 943 00:51:19,621 --> 00:51:22,248 I lived on the 11th and The Broadways. 944 00:51:23,041 --> 00:51:24,876 Do you see? 945 00:51:26,211 --> 00:51:29,964 What's it like if you're married? You haven't talked about it much. 946 00:51:30,882 --> 00:51:34,386 I didn't? How strange. 947 00:51:34,928 --> 00:51:38,848 I don't know. We met, you know when I was in college. 948 00:51:39,057 --> 00:51:45,397 Then we broke up and got back together settled for a few years, but then... 949 00:51:46,064 --> 00:51:50,276 What? Somehow we were back together and she was pregnant… 950 00:51:50,944 --> 00:51:52,529 ...so, the wedding. 951 00:51:52,696 --> 00:51:54,698 What is she like? 952 00:51:54,906 --> 00:51:57,909 A wonderful teacher, a good mother. 953 00:51:58,118 --> 00:52:01,162 She's smart, beautiful, you know. 954 00:52:01,329 --> 00:52:03,373 At the time I thought... 955 00:52:03,581 --> 00:52:05,917 ...that there are so many men, whom I admired... 956 00:52:06,126 --> 00:52:10,922 ...that their lives were consecrated to something bigger than themselves. 957 00:52:11,715 --> 00:52:14,426 So you got married because they were married too? 958 00:52:14,592 --> 00:52:20,849 No, no. I had more of this… That notion of one's own goodness, you know? 959 00:52:21,016 --> 00:52:22,767 And this is what I wanted to follow… 960 00:52:22,934 --> 00:52:25,687 ...although that might undo it my true nature. 961 00:52:25,854 --> 00:52:27,272 You know what I'm talking about? 962 00:52:27,439 --> 00:52:31,943 At that moment it seemed to me, that it doesn't matter which part it is. 963 00:52:32,193 --> 00:52:34,696 I mean, no one does will mean everything... 964 00:52:34,863 --> 00:52:37,741 ...and that's just it it's a matter of what you surrender to... 965 00:52:37,907 --> 00:52:41,411 ...you know that you get to know what are your responsibilities. 966 00:52:41,578 --> 00:52:45,206 I mean what is the love of another like respect, trust, admiration? 967 00:52:45,373 --> 00:52:48,418 And I... I felt it all. 968 00:52:48,626 --> 00:52:51,463 But now I already feel to run a nursery school... 969 00:52:51,671 --> 00:52:54,299 ...with someone I'm with used to walk. 970 00:52:54,507 --> 00:52:56,301 I mean, I'm like a monk, you know? 971 00:52:56,509 --> 00:53:01,389 I mean, because I had sex less than ten times in the last 4 years. 972 00:53:01,890 --> 00:53:04,434 What, what? Are you laughing at me? - No. 973 00:53:04,642 --> 00:53:07,479 Sound pathetic? - In which monastery do monks have sex? 974 00:53:07,645 --> 00:53:10,982 Ok, you're right, I'm doing better like most monks. 975 00:53:11,149 --> 00:53:13,610 However, I feel that if would someone touch me... 976 00:53:13,818 --> 00:53:15,987 ...would split into molecules. 977 00:53:16,196 --> 00:53:18,948 Well, here we are. We have to go. Come on. 978 00:53:19,115 --> 00:53:20,992 Shit. 979 00:53:33,505 --> 00:53:36,466 I'm sorry to hear that. - What? 980 00:53:36,633 --> 00:53:39,678 That you are not satisfied with his law. 981 00:53:39,886 --> 00:53:42,514 A friend of mine is a therapist... - How is she doing? 982 00:53:42,722 --> 00:53:44,307 It's a wreck, but... 983 00:53:44,474 --> 00:53:47,686 No, she said she was busy with divorcing couples… 984 00:53:47,894 --> 00:53:50,021 ...for the same reasons. - What reasons? 985 00:53:50,230 --> 00:53:52,982 Everyone expected it to be after a few years of living together... 986 00:53:53,149 --> 00:53:55,485 ...passion, lust still the same. 987 00:53:55,652 --> 00:53:57,112 Yes, something else. - It's impossible. 988 00:53:57,278 --> 00:53:58,613 And thank goodness... 989 00:53:58,780 --> 00:54:02,534 ...because our arteries would expand, with constant excitement. 990 00:54:02,701 --> 00:54:04,494 I wouldn't make anything out of it their lives. 991 00:54:04,661 --> 00:54:08,164 I would write a book to the end, if you were to fuck every five minutes? 992 00:54:08,331 --> 00:54:10,917 It might be a challenge welcome i mean... 993 00:54:11,126 --> 00:54:13,878 It's natural for your wife, that after the birth of my son... 994 00:54:14,045 --> 00:54:16,673 ...giving all his love baby. - Of course. 995 00:54:16,840 --> 00:54:20,010 If I were obsessed with sex, rode you like a wild cat... 996 00:54:20,176 --> 00:54:21,886 That wouldn't make sense, would it? 997 00:54:22,095 --> 00:54:25,682 Everything you say makes sense. It's not about sex. 998 00:54:25,849 --> 00:54:28,059 No, I know. It's obvious. 999 00:54:28,226 --> 00:54:29,811 I... 1000 00:54:30,937 --> 00:54:34,149 You know, couples are so confused lately. 1001 00:54:34,315 --> 00:54:36,568 I think it's because…. 1002 00:54:36,776 --> 00:54:40,697 ...men need to feel important and no more. 1003 00:54:40,905 --> 00:54:43,408 They have been doing this for so many years imprinted in the head... 1004 00:54:43,575 --> 00:54:45,326 ...that they must be caregivers. 1005 00:54:45,493 --> 00:54:49,164 I myself am a strong, independent woman in my professional life. 1006 00:54:49,330 --> 00:54:50,874 I don't need a man to feed me... 1007 00:54:51,041 --> 00:54:54,377 ...but I still need a man to love me and whom I love. 1008 00:54:55,754 --> 00:54:58,423 Your driver is here. - Yes. 1009 00:54:58,590 --> 00:55:00,258 Well, I guess that's goodbye. 1010 00:55:00,467 --> 00:55:02,093 You better give me your... - No, no. 1011 00:55:02,302 --> 00:55:04,512 Why don't you just drove home? 1012 00:55:04,679 --> 00:55:07,015 I can go by tram. It's fine. - No, I... 1013 00:55:07,182 --> 00:55:10,101 My flight isn't until 10pm. I'll be there two hours early. 1014 00:55:10,310 --> 00:55:11,728 So we can keep talking. 1015 00:55:11,895 --> 00:55:14,022 Sir, what can I...? - It's not in that direction. 1016 00:55:28,787 --> 00:55:30,705 Did you tell him where to go? 1017 00:55:30,872 --> 00:55:32,499 Yes. 1018 00:55:35,835 --> 00:55:38,296 Does he know where he has to go? - Yes. 1019 00:55:38,463 --> 00:55:40,298 At least one. 1020 00:55:40,507 --> 00:55:44,636 But it's better than the tram, no? - For sure. 1021 00:55:47,055 --> 00:55:51,476 I think it's better for me if things I don't embellish anymore. 1022 00:55:51,643 --> 00:55:53,478 I suffered a lot all the time. 1023 00:55:53,645 --> 00:55:57,148 I still have many dreams, but regardless of the love life. 1024 00:55:57,399 --> 00:55:59,776 I'm not sad that's how it is. 1025 00:55:59,984 --> 00:56:04,114 So you're in a relationship with someone which never existed? 1026 00:56:04,280 --> 00:56:08,159 Yeah, obviously I can't mess with everyday matters in the relationship. 1027 00:56:08,368 --> 00:56:10,453 Yes, it's exciting for us... 1028 00:56:10,620 --> 00:56:13,998 ...then he leaves and I miss him, but at least I'm not dying inside. 1029 00:56:14,165 --> 00:56:16,584 When someone is always around me it's suffocating me. 1030 00:56:16,793 --> 00:56:19,671 Wait, you just said to love and be loved. 1031 00:56:19,838 --> 00:56:22,674 Yes, but when I it quickly disgusts me. 1032 00:56:22,841 --> 00:56:24,342 It's terrible. 1033 00:56:24,509 --> 00:56:27,178 I mean, I'm really happy only when I'm alone. 1034 00:56:27,345 --> 00:56:32,183 Solitude alone is better than sitting next to a lover, and you feel lonely. 1035 00:56:32,851 --> 00:56:34,811 I'm hardly romantic. 1036 00:56:34,978 --> 00:56:38,481 That's how you start, but when you he messes up a few times... 1037 00:56:38,648 --> 00:56:42,986 ...you forget about your delusional ideas and you accept what life offers you. 1038 00:56:43,653 --> 00:56:46,156 That's not even true. It hasn't messed with me yet... 1039 00:56:46,322 --> 00:56:48,700 ...I just had too much meaningless relationships. 1040 00:56:48,867 --> 00:56:50,702 They weren't mean, they took care of me... 1041 00:56:50,869 --> 00:56:54,372 ...but there was no real contact or pleasure. 1042 00:56:54,581 --> 00:56:56,708 At least not from my side. 1043 00:56:56,875 --> 00:56:59,544 Oh, I'm sorry, what's true so bad? 1044 00:56:59,711 --> 00:57:01,796 It's not, is it? 1045 00:57:03,048 --> 00:57:05,800 You know, it's not that at all. I was... 1046 00:57:05,967 --> 00:57:09,137 I was fine until I read it your fucking books. 1047 00:57:09,637 --> 00:57:11,306 She raised shit, you know? 1048 00:57:11,681 --> 00:57:14,309 She reminded me how I was openly romantic... 1049 00:57:14,476 --> 00:57:16,644 ...how I trusted everything... 1050 00:57:16,811 --> 00:57:20,357 ...but now I don't believe in anything, which pertains to love. 1051 00:57:20,523 --> 00:57:22,525 I don't feel anything anymore to people. 1052 00:57:23,651 --> 00:57:27,322 In a way, I'm putting my all into it romance in that night... 1053 00:57:27,489 --> 00:57:29,991 ...and I never could to feel everything again. 1054 00:57:30,158 --> 00:57:32,702 Like this is my night took something away... 1055 00:57:32,869 --> 00:57:35,246 ...and I expressed this to you, and you took it with you. 1056 00:57:35,455 --> 00:57:37,332 I felt cold like love isn't for me. 1057 00:57:37,499 --> 00:57:40,251 I don't believe that. I don't believe that. 1058 00:57:41,503 --> 00:57:45,757 You know what? Reality and love they are opposites for me. 1059 00:57:45,924 --> 00:57:50,220 Funny, every single one of my exes is now married. 1060 00:57:50,387 --> 00:57:53,264 Men date me, we break up, then they get married. 1061 00:57:53,473 --> 00:57:56,935 They call me later, as a thank you to learn about love... 1062 00:57:57,143 --> 00:57:59,604 ...and that I learned to take care of them and respect women. 1063 00:57:59,771 --> 00:58:02,190 I am one of those. - I would kill them! 1064 00:58:02,399 --> 00:58:06,027 Why didn't they propose to me? I would refuse, but at least we could propose. 1065 00:58:06,194 --> 00:58:09,948 I know it's my fault because I never felt who was right. 1066 00:58:10,198 --> 00:58:13,410 Never. What does that even mean he says, the love of your life? 1067 00:58:13,576 --> 00:58:16,913 The concept is meaningless. That we can only complete with another person. 1068 00:58:17,122 --> 00:58:19,457 It's evil, isn't it? - Can I speak? 1069 00:58:19,666 --> 00:58:23,086 Looks like I've been too many times collapsed and then I recovered. 1070 00:58:23,253 --> 00:58:25,880 So that now at the beginning, I don't try anything at all. 1071 00:58:26,047 --> 00:58:28,800 I know it won't work. - You can't do that. 1072 00:58:29,050 --> 00:58:30,927 You can't live in avoidance before the pain... 1073 00:58:31,136 --> 00:58:32,929 ...with this you will... - These are words. 1074 00:58:33,096 --> 00:58:34,556 I have to get away from you. 1075 00:58:34,764 --> 00:58:36,891 Stop the car, I want out. - No, not at all... 1076 00:58:37,100 --> 00:58:38,977 Keep talking. - It's because of your proximity. 1077 00:58:39,144 --> 00:58:41,479 Don't touch me, you know? I would like to take a taxi. 1078 00:58:44,232 --> 00:58:46,651 No, not at all. No, whatever you drive. 1079 00:58:46,818 --> 00:58:50,405 Listen, I'm so happy... Thanks for carrying on. 1080 00:58:50,572 --> 00:58:52,282 All right. 1081 00:58:53,616 --> 00:58:57,328 Look, I'm so happy to be with you. 1082 00:58:57,537 --> 00:59:00,915 I really am. I'm glad don't forget me, okay? 1083 00:59:01,082 --> 00:59:03,793 No, I'm not you. And that pisses me off, okay? 1084 00:59:04,002 --> 00:59:07,672 You come to Paris, all romantic and married. 1085 00:59:07,839 --> 00:59:09,299 okay? Fuck you. 1086 00:59:10,133 --> 00:59:12,510 Don't get me wrong, I'm not conquering you. 1087 00:59:12,677 --> 00:59:15,138 I mean, another married man I miss it. 1088 00:59:15,764 --> 00:59:19,100 So much has already happened that it's not about you at all. 1089 00:59:19,267 --> 00:59:21,728 It's about that moment which is gone forever. 1090 00:59:21,936 --> 00:59:24,856 That's what you say, but you didn't even mean it reminded us of our sex, so... 1091 00:59:25,023 --> 00:59:27,859 Of course I remembered. 1092 00:59:29,027 --> 00:59:31,446 What really? - Yes. 1093 00:59:31,613 --> 00:59:34,991 Women pretend like that. - What really? 1094 00:59:35,200 --> 00:59:39,162 What should she say? To remember the wine in the park... 1095 00:59:39,329 --> 00:59:42,832 ...and how we looked at the stars, when they disappeared towards morning? 1096 00:59:42,999 --> 00:59:46,378 We had sex twice, you idiot! 1097 00:59:47,754 --> 00:59:51,549 Right, you know what, I'm just happy to see you 1098 00:59:51,758 --> 00:59:55,178 Even though you got angry manic-depressive activist... 1099 00:59:55,345 --> 00:59:58,848 ...I still like you I still like to be in your company. 1100 00:59:59,516 --> 01:00:03,895 I feel the same way. Sorry. I don't know what happened, I just... 1101 01:00:04,062 --> 01:00:06,523 I had to take a breather. - Don't worry. 1102 01:00:06,690 --> 01:00:09,317 I'm so unlucky in love in their relationship. 1103 01:00:09,484 --> 01:00:12,654 I always act... Like I'm split off. 1104 01:00:12,821 --> 01:00:15,990 But inside I'm dying. I'm dying because I'm so numb. 1105 01:00:16,157 --> 01:00:19,911 I feel no pain or excitement, I'm not bitter yet, I just... 1106 01:00:20,078 --> 01:00:22,747 You think you're the only one who is dying inside? 1107 01:00:22,914 --> 01:00:27,085 My life is 24 hours a day, on the dog. 1108 01:00:27,293 --> 01:00:28,586 Sorry. - No, no. 1109 01:00:28,795 --> 01:00:31,715 The only joy I have is when I'm out with my son. 1110 01:00:31,881 --> 01:00:33,550 I was in marriage consulting... 1111 01:00:33,717 --> 01:00:36,344 ...I did things that I thought that I will never need them. 1112 01:00:36,511 --> 01:00:39,431 I lit candles bought self-help books, sexy lingerie. 1113 01:00:39,639 --> 01:00:42,017 Did the candles help? - Hell no. 1114 01:00:42,183 --> 01:00:44,686 She is not loved like this as it should be... 1115 01:00:44,853 --> 01:00:49,274 ...and I don't even see a common future, and then I look at my son... 1116 01:00:49,482 --> 01:00:52,861 ...how he sits across from me and I think I would suffer all… 1117 01:00:53,028 --> 01:00:55,405 ...to be with him his whole life. 1118 01:00:55,572 --> 01:00:57,449 I don't want to miss anything. 1119 01:00:57,615 --> 01:01:01,953 Then, there is no joy or laughter in my home, you know? 1120 01:01:02,120 --> 01:01:05,790 I don't want him to grow up in this. - No laughter? This is terrible. 1121 01:01:05,957 --> 01:01:07,917 My parents are a total of 35 years... 1122 01:01:08,084 --> 01:01:10,420 ...and also when they get dirty they end up laughing. 1123 01:01:10,587 --> 01:01:14,382 I don't want to be one of those who divorce at 52... 1124 01:01:14,549 --> 01:01:18,970 ...and then they cry, that they never loved their spouses... 1125 01:01:19,137 --> 01:01:24,142 and who feel that their life is sucked into the void. 1126 01:01:24,392 --> 01:01:27,937 You know, I want a great life. I want her to have a wonderful life 1127 01:01:28,146 --> 01:01:30,357 he deserves it. 1128 01:01:30,565 --> 01:01:33,902 But we live only in pretense law, responsibility... 1129 01:01:34,069 --> 01:01:38,073 ...you know, all these ideas about how people are supposed to live. 1130 01:01:39,783 --> 01:01:43,661 Then... I have this dream... 1131 01:01:45,163 --> 01:01:46,498 What kind of dream? 1132 01:01:46,706 --> 01:01:50,168 I have this dream you know that... 1133 01:01:50,669 --> 01:01:52,629 ...I'm standing on the platform... 1134 01:01:53,963 --> 01:01:57,092 ...and you keep driving by train... 1135 01:01:57,258 --> 01:02:01,680 and you pass and you pass and you pass and you pass 1136 01:02:01,846 --> 01:02:03,682 And I wake up pissed off I'm sweating. 1137 01:02:03,890 --> 01:02:06,184 And then I have another dream... 1138 01:02:06,393 --> 01:02:10,188 ...when you're pregnant and naked in bed next to me... 1139 01:02:10,438 --> 01:02:14,192 ...and I want to touch you so much, but you don't want to and look away. 1140 01:02:14,401 --> 01:02:18,863 And then... Then you I still touch... 1141 01:02:19,030 --> 01:02:23,493 ...your ankles and skin are so soft, to wake up in a hurry, okay? 1142 01:02:24,285 --> 01:02:27,706 My wife is there watching me and I feel like I'm light years away. 1143 01:02:27,914 --> 01:02:31,960 And I know it is something wrong to... 1144 01:02:32,127 --> 01:02:34,129 Oh god, I can't keep living like this... 1145 01:02:34,295 --> 01:02:36,840 ...that there must be more to love, as just an obligation. 1146 01:02:37,048 --> 01:02:39,843 Then I think I am maybe give up... 1147 01:02:40,010 --> 01:02:41,886 ...about the idea of romantic love. 1148 01:02:42,053 --> 01:02:45,390 That maybe I am left behind... 1149 01:02:45,557 --> 01:02:48,309 The day you didn't come. 1150 01:02:48,476 --> 01:02:51,229 You know, I think I am did that. 1151 01:02:52,480 --> 01:02:54,691 Why are you telling me all this? 1152 01:02:55,567 --> 01:02:59,738 Sorry. I don't know. I wouldn't... 1153 01:03:00,947 --> 01:03:02,907 You shouldn't. 1154 01:03:03,074 --> 01:03:04,659 You know, it's so weird. 1155 01:03:04,826 --> 01:03:08,872 People think they are the only ones which is difficult for them. 1156 01:03:09,080 --> 01:03:13,376 I mean when I read the article, I thought you had a perfect life. 1157 01:03:13,668 --> 01:03:17,589 Wife, child, acclaimed author. 1158 01:03:18,214 --> 01:03:21,593 But it's your private life even worse than mine. 1159 01:03:21,760 --> 01:03:24,095 I'm sorry. 1160 01:03:24,262 --> 01:03:27,390 Well, I'm glad it did at least for something good. 1161 01:03:30,101 --> 01:03:33,355 Do you live here? - Yes. 1162 01:03:34,272 --> 01:03:38,443 So you're relieved I'm in a bigger one shit like you? 1163 01:03:38,610 --> 01:03:40,445 Yes, you cheered me up. 1164 01:03:40,612 --> 01:03:42,781 Oh, God, I'm so happy. 1165 01:03:42,989 --> 01:03:45,450 No, I really wish you the best. 1166 01:03:45,617 --> 01:03:49,287 It's not because I'm incapable of having one a good relationship or family... 1167 01:03:49,454 --> 01:03:51,581 ...that I want everyone to be doomed like me. 1168 01:03:51,748 --> 01:03:54,125 I'm sure you would...Yes you will be a wonderful mother one day. 1169 01:03:54,292 --> 01:03:55,752 Really? What do you think? - Yes... 1170 01:03:55,960 --> 01:03:59,089 ...some antidepressants and you will master it. 1171 01:03:59,881 --> 01:04:02,717 Okay, say stop. - Stop. 1172 01:04:03,134 --> 01:04:05,887 Right. Are you ready? Okay. 1173 01:04:16,022 --> 01:04:20,235 Would you like to try something? - What? 1174 01:04:22,654 --> 01:04:27,033 I'd like to see if you'll stay whole will you split into molecules. 1175 01:04:28,076 --> 01:04:29,994 How am I doing? 1176 01:04:30,161 --> 01:04:32,122 You're still here. 1177 01:04:32,288 --> 01:04:34,457 Good. I like it here. 1178 01:04:38,336 --> 01:04:39,921 Is this your suite? 1179 01:04:40,088 --> 01:04:41,798 No, I live down there. 1180 01:04:41,965 --> 01:04:44,175 Down there? - Yes. 1181 01:04:44,342 --> 01:04:46,845 Sir, I will escort her to the door. 1182 01:04:55,937 --> 01:04:57,272 It's amazing here. 1183 01:04:57,439 --> 01:05:00,150 Do you live here? - Yes. 1184 01:05:00,316 --> 01:05:03,528 How long have you been here? - Four years. 1185 01:05:05,071 --> 01:05:07,198 So tell me... - What 1186 01:05:07,365 --> 01:05:09,034 Is everything true about your dreams... 1187 01:05:09,200 --> 01:05:11,995 ...did you say that to got into my panties? 1188 01:05:12,162 --> 01:05:13,705 To get into your panties. 1189 01:05:13,872 --> 01:05:16,374 I always use this trick. - Okay. Does it work? 1190 01:05:16,624 --> 01:05:19,502 You know. Sometimes. 1191 01:05:20,670 --> 01:05:24,174 Here is my cat. How cute he is. Look at him. 1192 01:05:24,341 --> 01:05:26,176 You know what I like with this cat? 1193 01:05:26,343 --> 01:05:28,636 I wear it every morning to the yard... 1194 01:05:28,845 --> 01:05:33,558 ...and every morning, he looks as if he is seeing everything for the first time. 1195 01:05:33,725 --> 01:05:37,812 Every corner, every tree, every plant. 1196 01:05:37,979 --> 01:05:40,398 He sniffs everything with his cute nose. 1197 01:05:40,607 --> 01:05:44,694 Oh, I love my cat. I love it. 1198 01:05:45,904 --> 01:05:47,822 What is his name? - Che. 1199 01:05:48,490 --> 01:05:50,367 Huh? 1200 01:05:52,035 --> 01:05:54,412 What? - A communist. 1201 01:05:55,914 --> 01:05:58,875 No, "che" means v "Hey" to Argentina. 1202 01:05:59,084 --> 01:06:01,503 Right. - Yes. 1203 01:06:01,670 --> 01:06:05,423 Oh dear. Oh, yes, yes, yes. 1204 01:06:08,760 --> 01:06:12,597 We will have a party. This is so much fun. 1205 01:06:22,774 --> 01:06:24,609 So... - So. 1206 01:06:40,792 --> 01:06:45,255 You know what? I was thinking would you like to play one of your songs for me? 1207 01:06:45,422 --> 01:06:47,590 You're going to miss your flight. - I won't. 1208 01:06:47,757 --> 01:06:50,635 I'll be at the airport even more I read like an hour... 1209 01:06:50,802 --> 01:06:53,763 ...and you wished we would played one song. 1210 01:06:53,972 --> 01:06:56,141 Just one? Right, but fast. 1211 01:06:56,307 --> 01:06:58,143 All right. 1212 01:07:03,481 --> 01:07:06,693 Oh, how I love these old stairs. 1213 01:07:44,981 --> 01:07:47,275 Take this. - What, for me? 1214 01:07:47,442 --> 01:07:49,486 how small are you 1215 01:07:50,528 --> 01:07:52,655 Che. 1216 01:08:04,125 --> 01:08:07,879 Would you like some tea? - Yes, of course. 1217 01:08:08,380 --> 01:08:10,006 Oh. 1218 01:08:11,049 --> 01:08:14,511 Is chamomile ok? - Yeah, great. 1219 01:08:14,719 --> 01:08:16,971 Thank you. - Does it smell? 1220 01:08:17,138 --> 01:08:20,892 Do you think my apartment stinks? - No, no thanks. 1221 01:08:21,059 --> 01:08:24,562 Merci beaucoup. - Ah, thank you. 1222 01:08:24,771 --> 01:08:28,525 I wanted to tell you that you speak much better. 1223 01:08:28,692 --> 01:08:30,026 Really? - Yes. 1224 01:08:30,193 --> 01:08:32,779 Yes, you really nailed it language. 1225 01:08:33,571 --> 01:08:36,700 Right, right, which song will you play for me? 1226 01:08:38,910 --> 01:08:41,830 No, I can't. I'm too ashamed. 1227 01:08:41,996 --> 01:08:45,709 Hey. There's no way. I came, I'm up you can't screw me up now. 1228 01:08:45,875 --> 01:08:47,877 One song. Any will do. 1229 01:08:48,086 --> 01:08:49,921 But you'll laugh at me. 1230 01:08:50,088 --> 01:08:51,548 You think? - Yes. 1231 01:08:51,798 --> 01:08:53,800 I doubt it. 1232 01:08:56,553 --> 01:08:57,929 Right. 1233 01:08:58,096 --> 01:09:00,515 What would you like to hear? I have... 1234 01:09:00,682 --> 01:09:03,018 I have three songs in English. 1235 01:09:03,184 --> 01:09:04,561 One is about my cat... 1236 01:09:04,728 --> 01:09:08,773 ...one about an ex-boyfriend... But to the ex-boyfriend... 1237 01:09:08,940 --> 01:09:11,443 ...and one is about... 1238 01:09:11,860 --> 01:09:15,238 Well, it's just one little waltz. 1239 01:09:15,405 --> 01:09:17,532 A waltz? Yes. 1240 01:09:17,741 --> 01:09:19,868 Play a waltz. - Right. 1241 01:09:20,076 --> 01:09:22,454 I haven't played it in a while - Are you sure? 1242 01:09:25,832 --> 01:09:27,375 Right. 1243 01:09:28,126 --> 01:09:30,420 All right, waltz. 1244 01:09:42,640 --> 01:09:47,103 Let me sing you a waltz 1245 01:09:47,312 --> 01:09:52,067 Out of nowhere, out of my mind 1246 01:09:52,233 --> 01:09:56,780 Let me sing you a waltz 1247 01:09:56,946 --> 01:10:00,825 About this one night stand 1248 01:10:01,910 --> 01:10:07,624 You were, for me, that night 1249 01:10:07,791 --> 01:10:13,672 Everything I've ever dreamed of 1250 01:10:13,880 --> 01:10:17,425 But now you're gone 1251 01:10:17,592 --> 01:10:21,846 You're not far away 1252 01:10:22,847 --> 01:10:27,519 All the way to your island in the rain 1253 01:10:27,686 --> 01:10:33,525 For you, it was just a matter of one power 1254 01:10:33,692 --> 01:10:36,695 But you were much more to me 1255 01:10:36,903 --> 01:10:39,614 Just so you know 1256 01:10:40,657 --> 01:10:43,660 I don't care what they say 1257 01:10:43,827 --> 01:10:48,790 I know what you meant to me That day 1258 01:10:48,957 --> 01:10:53,795 I'd like just one more try 1259 01:10:53,962 --> 01:10:58,967 I would like just one more night 1260 01:11:00,218 --> 01:11:06,182 Although it doesn't seem right to me 1261 01:11:06,391 --> 01:11:10,353 You meant more to me 1262 01:11:10,562 --> 01:11:14,899 Like anyone from before 1263 01:11:15,066 --> 01:11:21,406 One night with you, little Jesse 1264 01:11:21,573 --> 01:11:26,703 She is worth a thousand with anyone 1265 01:11:27,746 --> 01:11:31,082 I have no bitterness, my sweet 1266 01:11:31,458 --> 01:11:36,546 I will never forget this relationship for one night 1267 01:11:36,713 --> 01:11:42,844 Even tomorrow, in the arms of another 1268 01:11:43,011 --> 01:11:49,059 My heart will be yours until I die 1269 01:11:53,229 --> 01:11:58,026 Let me sing you a waltz 1270 01:11:58,193 --> 01:12:03,239 Out of nowhere, out of my sadness 1271 01:12:03,406 --> 01:12:08,370 Let me sing you a waltz 1272 01:12:08,536 --> 01:12:13,750 About this lovely one night stand 1273 01:12:30,809 --> 01:12:34,437 No, one more! Please, please. - No! That's how we agreed. 1274 01:12:34,646 --> 01:12:37,148 One...One song. No, no, no. 1275 01:12:37,315 --> 01:12:39,901 Have some tea and then... 1276 01:12:45,323 --> 01:12:47,659 Okay, let me ask you something. - What? 1277 01:12:47,826 --> 01:12:51,162 Or you just put that name in for every guy who comes here? 1278 01:12:51,746 --> 01:12:53,081 Yes, of course. 1279 01:12:53,248 --> 01:12:57,293 What do you think I am? wrote about you? are you crazy 1280 01:13:01,673 --> 01:13:04,092 is that you Celine's little squint? 1281 01:13:04,259 --> 01:13:06,803 Yes. This is ridiculous. - Cute. 1282 01:13:08,179 --> 01:13:11,641 Is this your grandma? - Yes. 1283 01:13:13,351 --> 01:13:15,478 Oh, whoa. 1284 01:13:15,854 --> 01:13:18,940 Would you like some honey? - Yes, of course. 1285 01:14:08,615 --> 01:14:10,909 Have you ever seen Nina Simone? at a concert? 1286 01:14:11,117 --> 01:14:13,661 No, never. I can't believe she's gone. 1287 01:14:13,995 --> 01:14:15,497 I know how sad. 1288 01:14:16,623 --> 01:14:18,083 Thank you. 1289 01:14:18,249 --> 01:14:20,210 It's hot. 1290 01:14:22,337 --> 01:14:25,173 I saw her twice at the concert. 1291 01:14:25,757 --> 01:14:28,093 She was so gorgeous. 1292 01:14:28,259 --> 01:14:31,262 This is one of my favorite songs. 1293 01:14:47,153 --> 01:14:48,446 She was so great. 1294 01:14:50,407 --> 01:14:52,701 She was also very funny at the concert. 1295 01:14:52,867 --> 01:14:57,038 I'd be...I'd be straight in the middle of the song and then... 1296 01:14:57,205 --> 01:14:59,082 ...you know, she stopped... 1297 01:14:59,249 --> 01:15:03,294 ...and walked away from the piano, all of it to the edge of the stage. 1298 01:15:03,461 --> 01:15:05,797 Really slowly. 1299 01:15:08,800 --> 01:15:12,095 And I would start talking to to someone in the audience. 1300 01:15:12,262 --> 01:15:15,640 "Oh, yes, honey. Oh, yes. 1301 01:15:16,391 --> 01:15:18,643 I love you too." 1302 01:15:19,060 --> 01:15:23,481 And then she would go back. You took your time, no rush, you know. 1303 01:15:23,690 --> 01:15:27,152 She had that big naughty ass. 1304 01:15:27,318 --> 01:15:28,903 Who moved her. 1305 01:15:30,613 --> 01:15:35,452 Then she would go back to the piano and played something else, you know? 1306 01:15:36,953 --> 01:15:38,621 Then, I don't know... 1307 01:15:38,788 --> 01:15:41,291 ...started with one song in the middle of another. 1308 01:15:41,458 --> 01:15:45,253 You know, I would stop again and said: 1309 01:15:45,420 --> 01:15:49,424 "You there, what can you move the blower. 1310 01:15:50,342 --> 01:15:52,469 You are cute. 1311 01:16:13,490 --> 01:16:15,492 Oh, yes." 1312 01:16:19,037 --> 01:16:23,333 Honey, you're going to miss that plane. 1313 01:16:24,626 --> 01:16:26,544 I know. 1314 01:20:13,646 --> 01:20:15,648 TRANSLATION: boris_j 1315 01:20:17,817 --> 01:20:21,988 TRANSLATION: boris_j